Krushre; Killers A and much and much more, so much more.
I am feeling good. I completed part 1 of the Killers A outline. But its better now. I almost drew every past part of the story as done in summer 2016. I mean it when I say it-that this work I literally had to go through hell to even get back to creating again or even the full outline. It has never been worked on since fall 2016. Essentially three years have gone and past and it has never been given a chance to be worked on. Its much like reconnecting with yourself and old memories doing this type of work. Last week, I did Norscene which is another work that had not seen the light of day for four years until I did it last week actual story and all, not an outline. In the summer era and forward there are works that have never been worked on for four years or three years when if in a normalcy and normal health would have been able to complete them but yet in ruined health could not even be expected to do one work at all. Literally, in summer 2016- I was not even in perfect health either. I had been hit across the head and it made doing things hard to do.Things would only get worse by fall where the entire body would be attacked for the privilege of crazy persons in olde academia. I never will forget where I was in summer. Trying very hard. This work Killers A, was the last Krushre work to be drafted. I mean, I drafted the Krushre works in some degree and a better fashion than the Kyeombi works in fall 2015 to spring 2015. I basically did not complete everything on the Krushre list, which was actually the Killpen list but one could just kick off titles that were too cumbersome or you weren't going to be able to draft because nothing was final then. Yea, I was giving it all in many proses to make Krushre successful. The thing about Krushre is that it was to help me tell new stories so I could continue telling Kyeombi stories. They weren't supposed to last long. Nope, just be about thirty or less chapters and that be that. I did not have page limits back then so they were to be long comics with thirty full sized comics. The ambitions were high then and the sky was open. I return to that place in completing this work. That the sky is open and don't need to rely on four pages solely if I don't want to. Rather that I can find a new status quo for length now. I am with the four page convention; able to make life easier and just be able to create a comic series in a day however and yea, that is what I will aim for. Why? Because people, nasty people exist in this world and they will not stop at anything to stop you. You need to record your ideas against the brainless. Many girls I would meet in fall 2016 were brutes of nature of the brainless and yet the cannibalistic and that they were. They believed they owned the world and they could get at you if you did not line up with their simplistic, delusioned and frankly crazy bubble world idealisms. Meaning to say many people lived in their own damn worlds and never in the real world. I am to tell you from experience, the best way to protect yourself and your family and any real person out there is to record stories and say such people exist. Record stories especially of your most true conventions. Don't wait in other words to draw anything or do anything when especially in this world you have lunatics who think it is their responsibility to take you out and are so sure of it. They are ignorant of the real world, knowledge even though they seek it and even though they seek knowledge they just want credits and not anything behind it.
Let me tell you a story how things work if you don't know. A story I can only provide after being through the things in which I have seen and experienced four years later. These bumbling girls in my case, what were they doing in that summer 2016? Oh, many of them were people who had just graduated highschool/ had taken two or three years off/ been off working in very privileged situations/ laying around their houses and doing nothing/ believing they are artists when they weren't but just idiots who believed they for doing some little work a 5th grader does in beginner art class are artists/ people who thought too highly off theirselves for being at a community college and let us not forget the scrooges against society. They go off on the assumptions that their life is all there ever is and that they can treat everyone has they see their selves in such delusions. Maybe a girl who just graduated highschool thought she could treat people as how she treated people in highschool or maybe a girl from the old country working in her family's barn or whatever thought she knew the world from their christian tendencies and watching too much racist against black people porn. It is a simple as that. A beginner art class individual thought they had all the answers and that people who were of color true and true had nothing to offer despite not even being in that class to show off or do anything like that. Very much what they think is what they think ought to be but that is never real life especially when aren't sane to begin with. Time again and time again for all the people who exist, me included-the perceptions of what you have of people will always be proven wrong or better or not as you thought. I am to tell you that when you ever come from the normal assumptions of sane people living in the way people of society live and do and don't utterly assume anything of anyone really off very bubble world and conceited delusions as the girls I met from fall 2016 to spring 2019, you get even some lessons about people. But when people all live in their phones and their bubble worlds you get too many lessons in which are all bad. Lessons about who people are can be generally bad or good. But here it was all but bad. True and true.
All the girls I met in look back were crazy and if they ever got anywhere it was because of privilege and some one put them there. They did not work for anything at all! And ever even eventually that will run out. Whilst one person does not ever know what happened to people after a certain time, some people follow you and so you know what happens to them in 2017, 2018 and 2019 to know that don't benefit from any narrative or nature of theirselves by bias of others to exalt crazy persons as normal joes. Literally, the one thing I would say is that you should never act in fear but in the ability to surely beat future adversity. I mean true and true is that I should have pushed harder for my works in that summer 2016 because all this reality has for many people are an excess of evil persons wielding pitchforks and blades to strike them down. Many people try to make it clear as hell that they are crazy and that they are from hell and that they are demons with the convictions of lunacy finding confidence in worlds where their actions are not the signs of a loon. This might be my most powerful message yet because it relates to quiet everyone of a certain degree. Fall 2016 forward is nothing but a time of persecution for ever trying to find a female counterpart or later just try to be in peace whilst learning or drawing. I look back and I want to know what the fuck these people were smoking. Literally to ever jump the barrel and for no reason at all just target you because you ever dare speak and not be in their lunatic bubble which is limited in knowledge of people and what people are. I am to tell you that you have very medieval society people walking around today and with the latest tech too. They cannot talk, they cannot reason, they have no merit of what real people are and they have no sure as hell knowledge of what is acceptable and what is not. I am to tell you that I did everything by the book of a normal human male in talking to everyone. Hello and bye, and just everyday speak and never any pick up lines and never even that. But to the nervous and afraid people bound by their imaginary worlds, you even saying hello to them or trying to speak to them to see who they are-is a threat and insult and especially if you are not white and not a Zac Efron figure. Literally, I find it disgusting all society can teach little girls is to revere a "white boy" as the superior answer in the romantic and sexual anything especially when it harms everyone. And I mean everyone. Even the white boys don't benefit because not everyone or much at all look like Zac Efron but I will tell you, some people will lie to theirselves of what they want and not to say that they should want black people or this or that people but literally Zac Efron is not what everyone is made to love. People want to ignore their true desires and just follow along with a pack of sheep to ever know what is for them and what even works for them. Yet, they find that you have the qualities of the person they seek but you will never be white so they hate you and especially when they think everyone of your sort is some sort of bumbling rap idiot in their closed closeted worlds of delusions. Worlds that don't even lack an realm of reality of anyone but what they have been led to know by family or media. People so convinced behind images that when people actually exist another way, they act to reject reality and do so in poisonous and yet disgusting charmed ways that pose to think of evil as a good because it suites the means of not being attached to this person. I am talking about retards. People who need actual mental counseling. While retard is hard term to truly know these days, in retrospect the people I met mostly girls were people who had such a low level of iq, level of reality depth and just any form of society training that they had something much and much wrong with them. I consider much to say of you the following. Talking to a person to try to get to know them is not a crime and especially when you never insult them. Yet people want to take you speaking to them as a means to an end to get rid of you and attack you for no reason and encourage attacking you. You would think people who teach or are in the administrative bodies of education are different but no, they are the same type of people who never have to ever be held accountable to recognize what people are and ever be held accountable to their actions. So racism and getting out of the monkey barrel are so key and hand to this disrespect. Where you have an entire school in which you give money to, everyone is working key and hand to disregard your image and who you are as a person. It is evil. But you have to give money to get credit to have jobs that might save you from ever having to go outside during the corona virus to be around people and basically put your life on the line. I meaning to say that; really much society is full of the places of people who want to rise up and say you are a criminal or an enemy or some type of repository for them to have a happy ending that is only temporary. Why is the happy ending temporary,you are never what they say and they are the real problem. They are looking to solve their personal issues by placing blame on other people. Attacking other people. It is because of this, that you must position yourself to either crush such people or not ever have to be dealing with these people. By I mean, crush them it is in which they cannot bother you or get your way. It does not mean physically harm them. But literally retards in their bubble worlds are always there to get you.
I bring you up to date or in 2019, that spring it was after the school was essentially cleared of problematic people and new ones just popped up in their place. One girl I say was like sane crazy. I mean to say that she was not a retard but she was evil. She knew what she was doing and what she was going about. Such people like that are just the queens of the hive minds that many lesser iq and sane people follow. In other words, this girl was like the person who would use the misinformed natures of the retards to gang up on people. She would spout lies about them and namely try to get them to fold on whatever they had value of being them in their lives to just be a racial image and nothing more. It is sick to say this girl tried to hold some imaginary power of me drawing Devil1s Castle as if it was going to make me into a sizable racial norm. I am to tell that such a girl was not a good person and nor was she a retard, why? Because she knew perfectly what was wrong and what was right. And she pretended good just to play bad later on. That is pretty much the behavior structure of an evil person. They pretend to be good just to led people in and then try to slaughter them. Yet I say that this girl was stupid. Whilst you may equate stupid with retard because of years of slang started in 2000, stupid is not the same word as retard at all. As I explained above retards are people who have something that is wrong with their ability to reason and their ability to perceive reality. They would not be people who have learning abilities in the definition I am using. But this word of retard is namely how it was used in the past in the 20th century namely to denote people who were just incapable of being productive and/or sane as people. Candy example is that people in the past would have called a person who spoke about butterflies all day long as a retard because they would have noted that she lacked the ability to tell reality from fiction or to not be fixated solely on butterflies to think of reality as being solely of them. Whilst the ability to have a creative mind and think of butterflies having an entire realm is good in actuality past the deposition of past people, it is only so when it is not hindering or toxic or harmful or negative to the actual individual. I mean, when I use retard- I am to realize the old people had a point to a degree. If a person can only think of reality in a delusional manner or fictional one then they lack a good sum of mental merit. And especially when people are bent on following these ideas to the degree of being dismissive to reality and the respect that ought to be given to people and are valiant behind negative causes and calls to arms, then you can say they are retards. Yet the degree a person chooses to realm behind delusions or fantasies, can note whether they are just a retard or just an evil person or both. To clue you in on this whole thing about the girl met in spring 2019, she had the ability to know reality was different but what she choose to follow was just the delusioned world to a high degree that she truly believed she had powers over others to make them do what "they ought to do when black" according to her. It is a moment where people are rude when you show them your works that make you question something, why do they ever think this is something to do? Don't they know the difference between right and wrong. No, they choose to wrap right and wrong behind false meanings and contexts and when you do that and do have the ability to reason of reality and yet choose to live in a fantasy, well-you are just evil. True and true folks. I illustrate this point to say that all the girls in fall 2016 were all just drones and three years later you would meet a queen who would try to take your identity from you and conversely your life and your merit of even living.
I am sure all the cute and bumbly this and that female version of peoples from Mexico to South America think that they know what this and that person is by their race and by their face and you know what type of life you have lived and can be inspired by Kim Kardashian and every wannabe pornstar out there to take on "jungle fever for marriage" but they don't. They assume some pop culture racist ideal and seek to always insert disrespect they would never do to el hombre on the block. They would never insert disrespect many people would fit them over or dismiss speaking to them over. Yet a person would have never been knocked over ever in any situation where people try to assert control by glaring them or call them a word or ignore them for a time and time and speak only to the other male which is just another person from Mexico to South America. They would never go like, "oh let me change into this crazy ass shit image you have in your head". They would have never been like that and that is not reality. What a queen drone expects is that the logic of a drone's delusioned reality to be able to be converted and exchanged into other people the queen expects by their( the queen's) liking of a deluded reality where the person is lesser than them. Now, the boy that was there paused for a moment because he realized what she did was rude, he was a normal person and expressed some what acknowledgement of an effort like a normal person after that moment. As if he realized what type of person the girl was and yet said nothing because he did not want to argue. I am to say that the boy paused in a moment like I did because he realized the girl was stupid. No one in reality thinks they have a degree of control over people to control who they are but people who are truly messed up inside. People who favor delusions as an inescapable reality and just the idol in which will make anyone they seek as lesser to fit into a person who could contain a delusion that would allow them to control that individual. Yet people have free will and the delusions of "jungle fever and racism" cannot be inserted into people who are actually fucking civilized and have a great deal of morals and a mind that comes from a civilized person. I am to tell you that if the girls who were drones were enough to nearly put you in the ground, that three years later-comes a queen drone who tries to rid you ever existed at all and tries to replace you with something unorganic and never real. This is the essential struggle anyone has in education colored or not. Following their dreams that don't line up with the mere profit system of education and its modern lacking conventions of a sovereign learned force that betters the world by "teaching" people the better way of being and teaching them the tools that makes for a "civilized" person. Seemingly by what you can assume, education is not the place for equality nor rights but the place for bees and education is the beehive for drones that suck up the nectar of roses that smell like bullshit! There is a song by Outcast that says that "roses smell like bull". It was my favorite song for a time but pretty much a one single hit.
Like that; the beehive is so urged of concern to place up faulty images of what they are or hide behind human shells that education falls to a secondary position of the control and thus harm they want to exercise to colored people and people with dreams. I am to tell you, that if you ever go to college-never speak of your dreams to anyone. Never hang out with anyone.And pay attention to the sum full hard message in the next sentence. Education is more about making more drones even when it cannot be done and never can be done but encouraging people with the tendency for drone behavior to be at their worst. Education these days is more about miseducating people about their roles in society and what they should be doing. Some schools for example will preach diversity and a high rate of graduates but really only pass the people in which they cannot bull or beat the crap out of.
They only pass people with the tendency to be drones and simply are the retards of society. People who no matter what they learn will always make harmful and badly misled decisions because they don't have a scene of morals or most importantly depth of reality. They pass the worst people. The worst. People who give into what their family expects of them which is to be an image of success for colored people which they think is being a biologist, chemist or engineer or whatever their family thinks is cool to be. People who have no self worth and don't seek for it and do bad things to compensate for that low self worth and lack of doing and thinking for yourself. Honestly, I think that really much giving out the notion that this is what success is-is the antithesis of education and society especially when you beat down all the normal people who dare have selves and dare do for theirselves. The degree of people who are dreamers and wish to do things that are never the convention of passing "Harry the forced conventional family value slave who does drugs and goes high on the rave" are just simply beat down and out by education and all the drones they inspire. I really say that education needed to encourage me to continue my efforts that summer 2016. Try to push me. But all they could do was push me into a deeper pit and get drones and drones for years and years inspired by the honey in their hive and their rhetoric of "what education and thus success is" to beat down on me and other people and make them make bad choices which enforce ideas drones love to see that artists are poor. No, people education never will push you to your dreams but try to strip them away from you so piss poorly its like they aren't even trying. Because what that girl did in spring 2019 was like a moment where you could have said, " are you fucking stupid" and that would have been enough to get the girl and her inner demons to snap and assault you. If you said that, you could basically learn that education can apply to the same manner. If of course you have to say something is stupid and what it did and does is stupid then it actually is stupid. I am literally tell you that education is stupid. Its not smart. You easily just by pushing yourself could leap bounds over people who say," this class is hard and so is this work and its not for people like you".
I mean, I love how people in these fucking subjects no one wants anything to do with try to relate upon you their fucking aimless lives. I don't care what you try to do to fill that empty vessel you call a body. A fucking show called Big Bang whatever that was only funny at the start? This is what you do for a fucking life outside of this bullshit you teach. I relate to you, you will never ever use chemistry least a chemist. O, I am to say that they will say you need it to learn how to read things that appear on your snack or chemicals of household this and that so you don't kill yourself by getting fat or exploding your residence but really you would just need a chemistry literacy class if that was the whole use of chemistry all the while. You only need a little chemistry when you are not a chemist to not blow yourself up or harm yourself in the everyday. But don't let them notice that chemistry literacy class would fit the populace that does not need to ever even pry open a beaker for some cheap coal. Or that the fact that this populace is everyone. But then everyone would be educated to a degree and then discount the fact of what chemistry is really for than reading labels or being on boxes. And people who teach chemistry classes who say this would be as poor as the artists they and their clever strewn people in their industry( who are high and rave) mock for ever daring to dream or do their dreams. Literally, all you would have to do is notice all of this and decide how to pass without cheating. Basically have to study books in which to compensate for a subject that truly it is not your true ambition( to learn chemistry) but to get a passing grade and have room to mock the teacher and their bleak lives watching what is so "funny". Only because others say it is. Literally even by doing this in compensating for what you don't even like or easily learn makes you heavy over a person who has always had the deposition to be over a subject and think because society made it acceptable-its an easy life line to piss on people society generally hates.
I should have continued in the class of adversity and tiredness I was feeling by that summer 2016 because it would have made me better than people who just have it easy and never dared school and just were like-I am going to straightaway be that comic book artist and "somehow" did. Get to be these comic book artists and yet don't know the cost of being so is their freedom of speech. Rather here that the price of being tortured by school and its beehive of retards; I realize simply how stupid it is ever to think school guarantees the success or that your own reference of the world itself is enough to make it. Because simply that is what is to be said found in school. The hubris of an identity that tries to say it serves to better the knowledge of mankind but does stupid things when it knows better or simply ignores the better-the moral good. The hubris of self assuming identities for an individual and theirselves and others only promotes in education and the comic book industry and other places I imagine, a predatory nature to snipe those who dare be sane and dare live with the courage of humane people. I literally can compare girls from fall 2016 to Marvel writer.
On the internet there exists a youtube called YellowFlash, who hates the most recent Marvel imprints that people don't like based on appearance and appearance only because they say, " its not Marvel movie enough" and use "MCU( Marvel Cinematic Universe)" as much as they can in the respite against the new images of the new imprints. Yet YellowFlash is just one of these characters who has such a strong opinion they say, " comics are over and period" because they don't like one or two new ideas out of the many new titles Marvel has coming out. While that might be blasphemous for it own reasons. A certain comic book artist insider whatever actual function he has basically wants to remove YellowFlash's privacy-get his name out there and basically prevent him from having a freedom of speech or a job. I mean in doxing, people usually try to find something about you that is bad and maybe not enough to get you fired or enough to get you fired. By the way this individual was trying to work with his words it seems like he wants to completely remove YellowFlash from the picture of having a voice because he disapproved of his work and yet try to defame his actual name with things that could be most likely false unless YellowFlash actually has done something wrong( which is not the case to anyone's real knowledge). Defame his name so that if YellowFlash needed to get a job, no employer would look up for him at all. Yea, so basically because mr. Marvel lives in a world where he has limited speech being in comics industry and literally you can fall from grace there easily; he wants to impose the same reality on YellowFlash because he lives in a delusion. If you see the actually text, it basically is calling out for someone to cause harm to YellowFlash and much you can assume if you know of the effects of doxing and how employers factor into it-you can say that this Marvel comic book artist whatever wants to prevent YellowFlash from getting jobs by attaching criminal or bad idealisms to his actual name. By not actually doing it by calling for someone to go and do it. I mean, consider that and recognize that is pretty much what a girl who lives in a bubble world does. Because they have no real sanity of mind or society behind them, you ever saying anything to them is a cause for them to try to harm you or beckon others to harm you. And that is what is what a drone does.
In short what I can say from this long sum of notes on life in the modern now is that the only person who can move you ahead is you. I might wanted to test the levels of privilege in which I did have in summer 2016 in the end by not doing as I have always done, moving on my own efforts. Frankly, if you just wait around and do things sluggish and so slow and so with the merit of just trying to be in peace to with all of that, so drone from a community college or a college will come to try and snipe you and it is an ever ending cycle and eventually you have to stand for yourself and get what you want. Even if you are to recognize nearly ever person you dare approach as person is just a person out to do you harm. Every girl( in this case facebook and other entities are 18 and over)/woman much and much were unapproachable, stupid, retards or just evil. All pushed to further fruition by the glory that is the education system and every sum body ever that pushes to make a profit. You basically have to work for your own benefit or yet be hindered or killed true and true by a system that is stupid and evil. Now, really much I can allude you further to why this is the only way and no one has your back-take the current corona virus situation. Are you truly a hero when you are forced to put your life on the line? Working in a grocery store with no better pay despite being such of putting your life on the line? Probably not even being paid as much as even soldiers are paid and you know they are "heroes" too until they have a mind or a mental issue or just end up homeless?No, you aren't a hero. You are just a "thing", a delusioned person cannot respect nor respect their life nor its value. You cannot settle for such a circumstance people and if you do chances are you won't have a good future where you are happy and strong or have a good mind not plagued with ptsd for everything you have being threatened to be lost. I speak a real truth here out of what I have done today that has been a making in four years to do, only you can make the change. Only you can live your life and surely you need information to make the best decisions to live your life. If education does not tell you it or your folks lack the education to tell you it and you have to pay onto education and yet it does not do anything like that of telling you the information to truly make the best decisions for your life when its racist, condescending, close minded, open for money and wasting your time. Then you should know that it is stupid. There is no guidance but the self and the one that is most moral to preserve the self and its dreams. You have to invent to do this, when you have nothing and there is no information to cater to your needs. You must find the solutions. You must crush the opposers without violence and that will make you tactful, this will make resourceful and make you better than everyone else convinced a scrap of paper or degree makes them better. It does not. But what sets people who preserve the self and work for theirselves than the clogs, zombies, drones and the dogs of world is what? The utility to use the system against itself. Education itself might be a beehive but it contains a large amount of information, all you have to do is use it your advantage and your purposes and maybe get a scrap of degree that really means nothing to your true capabilities. With this paper, you can advance and make more money and just maybe escape from being a person in which is "expendable" to all the stupid people in the world. You can save your life or the chance of it ever being in danger to a great certain degree by just ever aiming for your dreams but yet get a degree in the meanwhile. This way you live.
However, this only works if you pick things that are going to give you the intended result oft to say you should never go to school for music or art because nothing is taught there and sincerly from my experience it is belittling. Yet for all the people who want to belittle you for art or music or being at a grocery store where you can literally get sick and die, you should never give in and never quit on yourself or the hope for light at the end of the tunnel and maybe to break the tunnel and the system twice over like a breakthrough. You should enable the curiosity of what you fully can do and not what people say you are and are not capable of. Really much to put in perspective, people always hold education over the workers at grocery stores and department stores and just any place where you provide a service to people even in the medical field with nurse to belittle them and their worth. None of that matters when people are worth more than being cannon fodder to a disease and just poor anything of concern and education itself is a sack of shit with hornets inside. It so easy to make the step up and through, you just have to think it through as you.
That is what of course I can say from completing this work through much similar adversity and danger. Yet I do say that the american government is stupid as well and the reason behind many troubles, too many to count-yours and mine.
Let me tell you a story how things work if you don't know. A story I can only provide after being through the things in which I have seen and experienced four years later. These bumbling girls in my case, what were they doing in that summer 2016? Oh, many of them were people who had just graduated highschool/ had taken two or three years off/ been off working in very privileged situations/ laying around their houses and doing nothing/ believing they are artists when they weren't but just idiots who believed they for doing some little work a 5th grader does in beginner art class are artists/ people who thought too highly off theirselves for being at a community college and let us not forget the scrooges against society. They go off on the assumptions that their life is all there ever is and that they can treat everyone has they see their selves in such delusions. Maybe a girl who just graduated highschool thought she could treat people as how she treated people in highschool or maybe a girl from the old country working in her family's barn or whatever thought she knew the world from their christian tendencies and watching too much racist against black people porn. It is a simple as that. A beginner art class individual thought they had all the answers and that people who were of color true and true had nothing to offer despite not even being in that class to show off or do anything like that. Very much what they think is what they think ought to be but that is never real life especially when aren't sane to begin with. Time again and time again for all the people who exist, me included-the perceptions of what you have of people will always be proven wrong or better or not as you thought. I am to tell you that when you ever come from the normal assumptions of sane people living in the way people of society live and do and don't utterly assume anything of anyone really off very bubble world and conceited delusions as the girls I met from fall 2016 to spring 2019, you get even some lessons about people. But when people all live in their phones and their bubble worlds you get too many lessons in which are all bad. Lessons about who people are can be generally bad or good. But here it was all but bad. True and true.
All the girls I met in look back were crazy and if they ever got anywhere it was because of privilege and some one put them there. They did not work for anything at all! And ever even eventually that will run out. Whilst one person does not ever know what happened to people after a certain time, some people follow you and so you know what happens to them in 2017, 2018 and 2019 to know that don't benefit from any narrative or nature of theirselves by bias of others to exalt crazy persons as normal joes. Literally, the one thing I would say is that you should never act in fear but in the ability to surely beat future adversity. I mean true and true is that I should have pushed harder for my works in that summer 2016 because all this reality has for many people are an excess of evil persons wielding pitchforks and blades to strike them down. Many people try to make it clear as hell that they are crazy and that they are from hell and that they are demons with the convictions of lunacy finding confidence in worlds where their actions are not the signs of a loon. This might be my most powerful message yet because it relates to quiet everyone of a certain degree. Fall 2016 forward is nothing but a time of persecution for ever trying to find a female counterpart or later just try to be in peace whilst learning or drawing. I look back and I want to know what the fuck these people were smoking. Literally to ever jump the barrel and for no reason at all just target you because you ever dare speak and not be in their lunatic bubble which is limited in knowledge of people and what people are. I am to tell you that you have very medieval society people walking around today and with the latest tech too. They cannot talk, they cannot reason, they have no merit of what real people are and they have no sure as hell knowledge of what is acceptable and what is not. I am to tell you that I did everything by the book of a normal human male in talking to everyone. Hello and bye, and just everyday speak and never any pick up lines and never even that. But to the nervous and afraid people bound by their imaginary worlds, you even saying hello to them or trying to speak to them to see who they are-is a threat and insult and especially if you are not white and not a Zac Efron figure. Literally, I find it disgusting all society can teach little girls is to revere a "white boy" as the superior answer in the romantic and sexual anything especially when it harms everyone. And I mean everyone. Even the white boys don't benefit because not everyone or much at all look like Zac Efron but I will tell you, some people will lie to theirselves of what they want and not to say that they should want black people or this or that people but literally Zac Efron is not what everyone is made to love. People want to ignore their true desires and just follow along with a pack of sheep to ever know what is for them and what even works for them. Yet, they find that you have the qualities of the person they seek but you will never be white so they hate you and especially when they think everyone of your sort is some sort of bumbling rap idiot in their closed closeted worlds of delusions. Worlds that don't even lack an realm of reality of anyone but what they have been led to know by family or media. People so convinced behind images that when people actually exist another way, they act to reject reality and do so in poisonous and yet disgusting charmed ways that pose to think of evil as a good because it suites the means of not being attached to this person. I am talking about retards. People who need actual mental counseling. While retard is hard term to truly know these days, in retrospect the people I met mostly girls were people who had such a low level of iq, level of reality depth and just any form of society training that they had something much and much wrong with them. I consider much to say of you the following. Talking to a person to try to get to know them is not a crime and especially when you never insult them. Yet people want to take you speaking to them as a means to an end to get rid of you and attack you for no reason and encourage attacking you. You would think people who teach or are in the administrative bodies of education are different but no, they are the same type of people who never have to ever be held accountable to recognize what people are and ever be held accountable to their actions. So racism and getting out of the monkey barrel are so key and hand to this disrespect. Where you have an entire school in which you give money to, everyone is working key and hand to disregard your image and who you are as a person. It is evil. But you have to give money to get credit to have jobs that might save you from ever having to go outside during the corona virus to be around people and basically put your life on the line. I meaning to say that; really much society is full of the places of people who want to rise up and say you are a criminal or an enemy or some type of repository for them to have a happy ending that is only temporary. Why is the happy ending temporary,you are never what they say and they are the real problem. They are looking to solve their personal issues by placing blame on other people. Attacking other people. It is because of this, that you must position yourself to either crush such people or not ever have to be dealing with these people. By I mean, crush them it is in which they cannot bother you or get your way. It does not mean physically harm them. But literally retards in their bubble worlds are always there to get you.
I bring you up to date or in 2019, that spring it was after the school was essentially cleared of problematic people and new ones just popped up in their place. One girl I say was like sane crazy. I mean to say that she was not a retard but she was evil. She knew what she was doing and what she was going about. Such people like that are just the queens of the hive minds that many lesser iq and sane people follow. In other words, this girl was like the person who would use the misinformed natures of the retards to gang up on people. She would spout lies about them and namely try to get them to fold on whatever they had value of being them in their lives to just be a racial image and nothing more. It is sick to say this girl tried to hold some imaginary power of me drawing Devil1s Castle as if it was going to make me into a sizable racial norm. I am to tell that such a girl was not a good person and nor was she a retard, why? Because she knew perfectly what was wrong and what was right. And she pretended good just to play bad later on. That is pretty much the behavior structure of an evil person. They pretend to be good just to led people in and then try to slaughter them. Yet I say that this girl was stupid. Whilst you may equate stupid with retard because of years of slang started in 2000, stupid is not the same word as retard at all. As I explained above retards are people who have something that is wrong with their ability to reason and their ability to perceive reality. They would not be people who have learning abilities in the definition I am using. But this word of retard is namely how it was used in the past in the 20th century namely to denote people who were just incapable of being productive and/or sane as people. Candy example is that people in the past would have called a person who spoke about butterflies all day long as a retard because they would have noted that she lacked the ability to tell reality from fiction or to not be fixated solely on butterflies to think of reality as being solely of them. Whilst the ability to have a creative mind and think of butterflies having an entire realm is good in actuality past the deposition of past people, it is only so when it is not hindering or toxic or harmful or negative to the actual individual. I mean, when I use retard- I am to realize the old people had a point to a degree. If a person can only think of reality in a delusional manner or fictional one then they lack a good sum of mental merit. And especially when people are bent on following these ideas to the degree of being dismissive to reality and the respect that ought to be given to people and are valiant behind negative causes and calls to arms, then you can say they are retards. Yet the degree a person chooses to realm behind delusions or fantasies, can note whether they are just a retard or just an evil person or both. To clue you in on this whole thing about the girl met in spring 2019, she had the ability to know reality was different but what she choose to follow was just the delusioned world to a high degree that she truly believed she had powers over others to make them do what "they ought to do when black" according to her. It is a moment where people are rude when you show them your works that make you question something, why do they ever think this is something to do? Don't they know the difference between right and wrong. No, they choose to wrap right and wrong behind false meanings and contexts and when you do that and do have the ability to reason of reality and yet choose to live in a fantasy, well-you are just evil. True and true folks. I illustrate this point to say that all the girls in fall 2016 were all just drones and three years later you would meet a queen who would try to take your identity from you and conversely your life and your merit of even living.
I am sure all the cute and bumbly this and that female version of peoples from Mexico to South America think that they know what this and that person is by their race and by their face and you know what type of life you have lived and can be inspired by Kim Kardashian and every wannabe pornstar out there to take on "jungle fever for marriage" but they don't. They assume some pop culture racist ideal and seek to always insert disrespect they would never do to el hombre on the block. They would never insert disrespect many people would fit them over or dismiss speaking to them over. Yet a person would have never been knocked over ever in any situation where people try to assert control by glaring them or call them a word or ignore them for a time and time and speak only to the other male which is just another person from Mexico to South America. They would never go like, "oh let me change into this crazy ass shit image you have in your head". They would have never been like that and that is not reality. What a queen drone expects is that the logic of a drone's delusioned reality to be able to be converted and exchanged into other people the queen expects by their( the queen's) liking of a deluded reality where the person is lesser than them. Now, the boy that was there paused for a moment because he realized what she did was rude, he was a normal person and expressed some what acknowledgement of an effort like a normal person after that moment. As if he realized what type of person the girl was and yet said nothing because he did not want to argue. I am to say that the boy paused in a moment like I did because he realized the girl was stupid. No one in reality thinks they have a degree of control over people to control who they are but people who are truly messed up inside. People who favor delusions as an inescapable reality and just the idol in which will make anyone they seek as lesser to fit into a person who could contain a delusion that would allow them to control that individual. Yet people have free will and the delusions of "jungle fever and racism" cannot be inserted into people who are actually fucking civilized and have a great deal of morals and a mind that comes from a civilized person. I am to tell you that if the girls who were drones were enough to nearly put you in the ground, that three years later-comes a queen drone who tries to rid you ever existed at all and tries to replace you with something unorganic and never real. This is the essential struggle anyone has in education colored or not. Following their dreams that don't line up with the mere profit system of education and its modern lacking conventions of a sovereign learned force that betters the world by "teaching" people the better way of being and teaching them the tools that makes for a "civilized" person. Seemingly by what you can assume, education is not the place for equality nor rights but the place for bees and education is the beehive for drones that suck up the nectar of roses that smell like bullshit! There is a song by Outcast that says that "roses smell like bull". It was my favorite song for a time but pretty much a one single hit.
Like that; the beehive is so urged of concern to place up faulty images of what they are or hide behind human shells that education falls to a secondary position of the control and thus harm they want to exercise to colored people and people with dreams. I am to tell you, that if you ever go to college-never speak of your dreams to anyone. Never hang out with anyone.And pay attention to the sum full hard message in the next sentence. Education is more about making more drones even when it cannot be done and never can be done but encouraging people with the tendency for drone behavior to be at their worst. Education these days is more about miseducating people about their roles in society and what they should be doing. Some schools for example will preach diversity and a high rate of graduates but really only pass the people in which they cannot bull or beat the crap out of.
They only pass people with the tendency to be drones and simply are the retards of society. People who no matter what they learn will always make harmful and badly misled decisions because they don't have a scene of morals or most importantly depth of reality. They pass the worst people. The worst. People who give into what their family expects of them which is to be an image of success for colored people which they think is being a biologist, chemist or engineer or whatever their family thinks is cool to be. People who have no self worth and don't seek for it and do bad things to compensate for that low self worth and lack of doing and thinking for yourself. Honestly, I think that really much giving out the notion that this is what success is-is the antithesis of education and society especially when you beat down all the normal people who dare have selves and dare do for theirselves. The degree of people who are dreamers and wish to do things that are never the convention of passing "Harry the forced conventional family value slave who does drugs and goes high on the rave" are just simply beat down and out by education and all the drones they inspire. I really say that education needed to encourage me to continue my efforts that summer 2016. Try to push me. But all they could do was push me into a deeper pit and get drones and drones for years and years inspired by the honey in their hive and their rhetoric of "what education and thus success is" to beat down on me and other people and make them make bad choices which enforce ideas drones love to see that artists are poor. No, people education never will push you to your dreams but try to strip them away from you so piss poorly its like they aren't even trying. Because what that girl did in spring 2019 was like a moment where you could have said, " are you fucking stupid" and that would have been enough to get the girl and her inner demons to snap and assault you. If you said that, you could basically learn that education can apply to the same manner. If of course you have to say something is stupid and what it did and does is stupid then it actually is stupid. I am literally tell you that education is stupid. Its not smart. You easily just by pushing yourself could leap bounds over people who say," this class is hard and so is this work and its not for people like you".
I mean, I love how people in these fucking subjects no one wants anything to do with try to relate upon you their fucking aimless lives. I don't care what you try to do to fill that empty vessel you call a body. A fucking show called Big Bang whatever that was only funny at the start? This is what you do for a fucking life outside of this bullshit you teach. I relate to you, you will never ever use chemistry least a chemist. O, I am to say that they will say you need it to learn how to read things that appear on your snack or chemicals of household this and that so you don't kill yourself by getting fat or exploding your residence but really you would just need a chemistry literacy class if that was the whole use of chemistry all the while. You only need a little chemistry when you are not a chemist to not blow yourself up or harm yourself in the everyday. But don't let them notice that chemistry literacy class would fit the populace that does not need to ever even pry open a beaker for some cheap coal. Or that the fact that this populace is everyone. But then everyone would be educated to a degree and then discount the fact of what chemistry is really for than reading labels or being on boxes. And people who teach chemistry classes who say this would be as poor as the artists they and their clever strewn people in their industry( who are high and rave) mock for ever daring to dream or do their dreams. Literally, all you would have to do is notice all of this and decide how to pass without cheating. Basically have to study books in which to compensate for a subject that truly it is not your true ambition( to learn chemistry) but to get a passing grade and have room to mock the teacher and their bleak lives watching what is so "funny". Only because others say it is. Literally even by doing this in compensating for what you don't even like or easily learn makes you heavy over a person who has always had the deposition to be over a subject and think because society made it acceptable-its an easy life line to piss on people society generally hates.
I should have continued in the class of adversity and tiredness I was feeling by that summer 2016 because it would have made me better than people who just have it easy and never dared school and just were like-I am going to straightaway be that comic book artist and "somehow" did. Get to be these comic book artists and yet don't know the cost of being so is their freedom of speech. Rather here that the price of being tortured by school and its beehive of retards; I realize simply how stupid it is ever to think school guarantees the success or that your own reference of the world itself is enough to make it. Because simply that is what is to be said found in school. The hubris of an identity that tries to say it serves to better the knowledge of mankind but does stupid things when it knows better or simply ignores the better-the moral good. The hubris of self assuming identities for an individual and theirselves and others only promotes in education and the comic book industry and other places I imagine, a predatory nature to snipe those who dare be sane and dare live with the courage of humane people. I literally can compare girls from fall 2016 to Marvel writer.
On the internet there exists a youtube called YellowFlash, who hates the most recent Marvel imprints that people don't like based on appearance and appearance only because they say, " its not Marvel movie enough" and use "MCU( Marvel Cinematic Universe)" as much as they can in the respite against the new images of the new imprints. Yet YellowFlash is just one of these characters who has such a strong opinion they say, " comics are over and period" because they don't like one or two new ideas out of the many new titles Marvel has coming out. While that might be blasphemous for it own reasons. A certain comic book artist insider whatever actual function he has basically wants to remove YellowFlash's privacy-get his name out there and basically prevent him from having a freedom of speech or a job. I mean in doxing, people usually try to find something about you that is bad and maybe not enough to get you fired or enough to get you fired. By the way this individual was trying to work with his words it seems like he wants to completely remove YellowFlash from the picture of having a voice because he disapproved of his work and yet try to defame his actual name with things that could be most likely false unless YellowFlash actually has done something wrong( which is not the case to anyone's real knowledge). Defame his name so that if YellowFlash needed to get a job, no employer would look up for him at all. Yea, so basically because mr. Marvel lives in a world where he has limited speech being in comics industry and literally you can fall from grace there easily; he wants to impose the same reality on YellowFlash because he lives in a delusion. If you see the actually text, it basically is calling out for someone to cause harm to YellowFlash and much you can assume if you know of the effects of doxing and how employers factor into it-you can say that this Marvel comic book artist whatever wants to prevent YellowFlash from getting jobs by attaching criminal or bad idealisms to his actual name. By not actually doing it by calling for someone to go and do it. I mean, consider that and recognize that is pretty much what a girl who lives in a bubble world does. Because they have no real sanity of mind or society behind them, you ever saying anything to them is a cause for them to try to harm you or beckon others to harm you. And that is what is what a drone does.
In short what I can say from this long sum of notes on life in the modern now is that the only person who can move you ahead is you. I might wanted to test the levels of privilege in which I did have in summer 2016 in the end by not doing as I have always done, moving on my own efforts. Frankly, if you just wait around and do things sluggish and so slow and so with the merit of just trying to be in peace to with all of that, so drone from a community college or a college will come to try and snipe you and it is an ever ending cycle and eventually you have to stand for yourself and get what you want. Even if you are to recognize nearly ever person you dare approach as person is just a person out to do you harm. Every girl( in this case facebook and other entities are 18 and over)/woman much and much were unapproachable, stupid, retards or just evil. All pushed to further fruition by the glory that is the education system and every sum body ever that pushes to make a profit. You basically have to work for your own benefit or yet be hindered or killed true and true by a system that is stupid and evil. Now, really much I can allude you further to why this is the only way and no one has your back-take the current corona virus situation. Are you truly a hero when you are forced to put your life on the line? Working in a grocery store with no better pay despite being such of putting your life on the line? Probably not even being paid as much as even soldiers are paid and you know they are "heroes" too until they have a mind or a mental issue or just end up homeless?No, you aren't a hero. You are just a "thing", a delusioned person cannot respect nor respect their life nor its value. You cannot settle for such a circumstance people and if you do chances are you won't have a good future where you are happy and strong or have a good mind not plagued with ptsd for everything you have being threatened to be lost. I speak a real truth here out of what I have done today that has been a making in four years to do, only you can make the change. Only you can live your life and surely you need information to make the best decisions to live your life. If education does not tell you it or your folks lack the education to tell you it and you have to pay onto education and yet it does not do anything like that of telling you the information to truly make the best decisions for your life when its racist, condescending, close minded, open for money and wasting your time. Then you should know that it is stupid. There is no guidance but the self and the one that is most moral to preserve the self and its dreams. You have to invent to do this, when you have nothing and there is no information to cater to your needs. You must find the solutions. You must crush the opposers without violence and that will make you tactful, this will make resourceful and make you better than everyone else convinced a scrap of paper or degree makes them better. It does not. But what sets people who preserve the self and work for theirselves than the clogs, zombies, drones and the dogs of world is what? The utility to use the system against itself. Education itself might be a beehive but it contains a large amount of information, all you have to do is use it your advantage and your purposes and maybe get a scrap of degree that really means nothing to your true capabilities. With this paper, you can advance and make more money and just maybe escape from being a person in which is "expendable" to all the stupid people in the world. You can save your life or the chance of it ever being in danger to a great certain degree by just ever aiming for your dreams but yet get a degree in the meanwhile. This way you live.
However, this only works if you pick things that are going to give you the intended result oft to say you should never go to school for music or art because nothing is taught there and sincerly from my experience it is belittling. Yet for all the people who want to belittle you for art or music or being at a grocery store where you can literally get sick and die, you should never give in and never quit on yourself or the hope for light at the end of the tunnel and maybe to break the tunnel and the system twice over like a breakthrough. You should enable the curiosity of what you fully can do and not what people say you are and are not capable of. Really much to put in perspective, people always hold education over the workers at grocery stores and department stores and just any place where you provide a service to people even in the medical field with nurse to belittle them and their worth. None of that matters when people are worth more than being cannon fodder to a disease and just poor anything of concern and education itself is a sack of shit with hornets inside. It so easy to make the step up and through, you just have to think it through as you.
That is what of course I can say from completing this work through much similar adversity and danger. Yet I do say that the american government is stupid as well and the reason behind many troubles, too many to count-yours and mine.
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