Cold war quickening.

Oft, it was winter 2015. Just had come back from a dentist appointment in a place where no such dentist who was ever there is now even there. I made myself a bowl of Gumbo( heated it up) and really thought about writing Bleach and then realized I had so much to still do. I still had to draft the remainder of the comics in Kyeombi I realized. That day, I set to work. Sometime later decided I would not do the comedy works of comedy. Why? Realize how hard it is to make a game changing progress and then later on have various forces try to undermine it with their vague sympathy for what they can only appreciate as a just reality. I could find no laughter and I was not going to force it. I would keep working on various drafts of series for a while 

But the first was Rogue Destiny of course.Such a gloomy mood was the story and such was in real life that replaced each other efficiently. Two parallel moods. Spent two weeks on the whole effort before moving onto something else. Short matter is that really there was peace in my self effort but there also an unrest from very seemingly territorial individuals who seem to believe they have a right to determine who you are and your particular future. Of course, they did not because people have lives and they don't but they would not know that and certainly don't tell them that either cause they will just try to attack you and take your life as spring and fall equally 2016 proves. There is something wild about privileged bastards that they are best tripped and caged. And if you have to; put asleep so you can soundly escape. If not there are to surely say that family is not ever a good support even and so indifferent because they don't live to live necessary but just to transgress as they live with false virtues and practices that only to them and maybe others feel good and sound good. Also maybe a menacing third element of fading health you can no longer hold onto. The prospects of dying romantic prospects where every namely summly son of a bitch is out for your blood-willing to spread lies any stranger who is not close to you can believe. But certainly you hope they don't because it would be stupid as none of the bullshit would be true and like those who would never believe it-just maybe and surely they are still in the same level of danger if not hirer. As just maybe these people who fall for the lies become misleaded to work to a false objective they think will grant them opportunities to further their so called "goals in life". That let's say are just common sense that aren't going to be done by means that truly aren't promised by hardwork and concentration but pitting down people in a cycle of blood loss and handing them off as if bounties for someone's wanted privileged view they be a definition that is solely material. Coming from a place of privilege and the place of people who have no wrongs in their record that are ever crimes in real society but crimes from the crumbs of bullshit perspective people are wrong for ever existing and living and nothing doing any wrong. Yet for all for all this and that of a seeming privileged entitled hunt you perspective so people who might have had sometype of interest in you-they get nothing out of this pretense of make believing so wrong and so dusty; it must be racism and classism and something more combined. Such an old presence-such an old evil it just has to be rooted in the people who run things and of the wrong side of the society. Yet many people will never notice how much they are used. Never does the whispers of a system even go with who they are as people even; people often targeted by the system. Sure, the people who run it would surely like to make use of your dumb pretentious bitch ass and then make you feel more pain despite being used already and never being able to reach some better benefit or moral tennant. Pulled down in the gutters forever. And for what they thought they were getting ahead of everyone but pitting people down-like people who fall into gangs have such a hard time returning to society and not namely hard staying out of the olde gang life even though its so harmful and just maybe here a person is a part of system harmful not only to their own lives, but the very nature of people being able to socialize well in the romantic tennant. Oft to say, one had to be careful of any girl they were to even lay eyes upon. Who is to say that without proper motivation they would come to despise you for them even liking you in part and don't see you beneficial to their spirit of greed mostly and false perception of gain. Much to say  many people think they can subdue a possible romantic connection for something that seems beneficial to their cruel hearts and no its not safety of the other person, individual or their right to even live life not be chased by haunted eyes because of passed on perceived messages such an input. Its for the sole benefit of themselves and perceived advancement where there is none and mostly and so contritely immoral if not in part- a rage of an animal in its tendered indecency for fornication. Simply a type of psychosis occurs where people believe via an else presented option from a system of negatively they will have a better romantic choice on who they are supposed to be with based on their narrow  views or real self worth and based off very self degrading and racist ideas. Never appreciate the value they even will place in an individual who might have interest in them but only surely they know that truly they are getting less than they bargained for giving excuses to cash in on people for a frivolous fancy of a perceived gift that will never come.  While at first they might have interest in the individuals. And maybe the individuals might return it. All these individuals want is to be offended by what they like when a faulty better perspective built on lies and hatred and arrises.

Much to say I did not make a mistake in never speaking to the girls this semester as many people just wanted in the back of all their ever good to god graces could do for you was plan to murder you later and if not slander and try to degrade you the most before that. I will say, it is a thing I experienced in the fall 2015. How I experienced a person just turn when given the benefit that the courage to truly get to know a person was not worth it but fear, greed and misinformation was.  Great excuses are the boon of all the evils within a person trying to trade you in never noticing the real to life connection that cannot be found in anyone else. Yet many people persist they will have better opportunities on the same line as their supposed connection with you yet never assume to be civil or social to actual form the connection. Surely that a certain college system teaches people women to be redeemingly cowards of courage and morals. And if not teaches that giving up on what is right in life. Asking permission to engage the idea of a romantic situation, where you are traumatic asking to be as if breaking up with a person or vehemently doing so or in a tough situation is not such a thing.  Teaches that people should never give people a chance but whatever they think of a person is justly what they are. Such that people are just options and not real people to even consider their lives, feelings or safety. People must be bought goods that can be picked and interchanged. But I am here to say at the end of the fall 2015, it should have been made apparent to many bitches and yes I call the girls, bitches here for the fact they would never let go of their judgy bounty priorities and superiority-that there was never a chance I was going to be in their life when they up and gave up a long time ago for there ever to be an sort of relationship to count on later. There is no chance for a relationship folks and one that is healthy when people refuse to properly communicate. Leave people in the dark and just ultimately want to blame them for ever existing. Counting them as goods to challenge the very narrative of write and even having to properly communicate with people. As if making up a fantasy about an individual is clearly enough to stake off the wrongs you do in not saying hello to them or even talking to them when you have an equal chance as them in doing so. Expecting them to carry the full weight of starting a relationship with you as if that is a redeeming quality that could ever allow them to be graced as higher than a lower image one simply perceives due to hate. Expecting them to carry the full weight of the relationship to even be worth it. As if this element of use allows you to bypass the hatred within. And if they don't say hello to you when you make none to expense yourself ever at all, they must be the trash you might truly be but for fucks sake can never acknowledge it.

Simply, these people could have never become " of use" even when they seeming are of use and you in a " relationship" with them. Because the people who you expect them to be or have a relationship are not real people but ideals of hatred and fancy of degrading them. If not one could have never be serious about "having a life with a person" if all they did was debate against theirselves and cast theirselves from out of feeling anything as if to treat the very intentions of them to have any feelings of them wrong against a true order of crime and hatred on the merit of race if not other things.

To say if you stand up there and wish to yourself, I don't have any such feelings and fuck you and think you are so rising and prominent at a college or a community college you can go fuck yourself. Because you honestly are not even giving your chance to do well but dropping every opportunities to a gangster running cunt and justifying it all the way in fear. And just maybe that never looks good to anyone who sees you and examines your actions and knows why you do what you do because they are aware of such a system of inherent crimes against humanity. And not fools to realize what is going on even. Such to say I find the system I am talking about comparable to how online artists just make fan art for a living and sell ideas that they never originally created.People in real life want to act as if they have created you out of false appreciation for you but they have no merit to your worth or theirselves. You being gold and they being fool's good. No fancy of a fool's gold to wish to be gold by heinous acts ever makes them golden. Nor does an artist truly get rich by making priceless fanart that deprive of the real creator's ideas and monetary gain. A person is made golden truly by being humane, theirselves and acting to make matters to theirselves be known and evident as structures of real wealth in their life. A person can be fake awoke to an idea that you are going to cause them some monetary loss or loss of face in their indulgent to wrong pride-but is them in the end who makes no gains but so much losses they can never recognize it in their blood and money hungry mantra.

On a gloomy day, I could not help but notice that the upcoming romantic "inspired" events were not be friendly if anything to be a storm of people without sanity and only the possession of harm onto you. Yes; an then some type of cold war quickened.