RUNE.

    Now what could be considered a thing you hoped to be. There are many things you can just hope to be but never will be. I look back on some of my past adventures and there are a lot of hopes just dashed. They just could not be. Thinking I could win some "L" company comic contest and eventually find some way of entry into the comic book market was a mistake. Truly the world is too cruel to engage in "equal opportunities" especially in a racist society as the "L" company is based. Instead you must forge a path alone albeit whilst third parties who target you for your goals and your racial identity are always out to get you some way and somehow( yes, its true they are-why else would you have to else shut down your comics page?). I am to say that whilst some ideal might have been good at the time; four years into the future-you realize nothing good would have come out of the ideal if you had entered comics in that certain way. To be nothing more than a poorly paid and kept tool for an industry. Some ideals are only good on the surface but underneath are just an iceberg; they hold no great value into making life better or even good. Maybe conditionally they held a great value somewhere else where things worked as they should to make " the dreams come true" but not here-because of how the world is and ultimately how people are.

     I am to say just in life there are many of these things of "mirage-instances" if you ever have a brain, have a dream and a dare to reach the dream. I might say my goal ultimately is to make comics to a certain plan but in that image-are some other conditional elements. No one expects to go it alone in life, yet time and time again; one could hope and hope that someone would come across. But no one does. In fact many people take an acknowledgement of your goals matched with a low vision view of how you are and avoid you. I am to say some people just cannot be counted to be apart of anything real or to give a fuck about creating any good in the world. Especially if creators theirselves. Some people have the antithesis of making any of their ambitions come true and will try to sink your ambitions too.

     I am to say that really much, you could always be looking for companionship in your adventures but there is none and time and time again you will always be denied again and again. You try to cheat the system there seems to be. Try to speak to people, try to relieve the drama and be one to see some outcome through. But that outcome never makes sense to people who are just with a foul nature, an evil in their heart and the refusal of basic truths and rights of life is all their  existence. Maybe that is to say that you can believe in yourself but you cannot ever make others believe in you. You cannot make either the world yield a possibility that weighs upon people and how structures currently are. All you can depend upon is yourself. Namely, I assert its not wrong to look for the things of companionship. Yet would you rather reach your dreams and not be stabbed in the back or hindered from company a 100 times over? I think any sane person rather not come across a 100 mirages in life. They would rather have at least 5 set backs then one person who would be the one. Yet that is not real life for those in which society and people make it especially hard to even be accepted or even viewed as humans.

   This whole grand entrance is to tell you that in the following; there is no good ending and really while it seemed a curse of sorts would be broken-there would be none. All the same in the end would you get royal nastiness just for wanting a genuine fucking human connection. Would it not be so hard to ask for one good connection? Just one! Nope, obviously it probably would be akin to prison and just tying yourself down to something that would only hinder advancement and hinder your progress. I am to say there is no worse faith of being the one to fall into a hole you were never meant for; a peg you were never meant for. Yes'em, like we in the south say(only old people and those who know of different dialects)-there is to be said that you aren't meant for those with little dreams, low effort, belittling idealisms and lacking knowledge. You are meant for something better and that be the pure fucking truth.