summer 2015; an intro.

       Summers are a time of fun and excitement. But the summer of 2015 was more a rebound to be saved from the dangers of the world. To reconsider. To try again. And in the end still had the same bullshit faith to people who gave literally no fucks to you being real in the first place. I'd like to envision it like this. Many people come on and say that they "know Jesus" or came to know him. But the dude is dead. And literally how is some gullible sheltered prick who hates their selves and anyone of diverse ideas and how things operate outside a church were harmful lies are tolerated-to literally have a relationship with Jesus when they don't live in the real world. They don't experience things because all they do is feed into a lie. The cult that is religion takes care of them. A cult made off the suffering of one man who they will never personally know and if you believe in the spiritual; why would Jesus settle for this nonsense ultimate goal" Of bringing people into the church" when in his life as told by the bible he did many great things. And he did not stay in a little cult commune, community or just accepted one group of people as superior and just fuck everyone else. 

     He was in the real world doing things for the people of the earth in time. Aka, maybe if you are a gospel singer and you tell about "when you know of Jesus" you are just trying to sell this clean gospel modern image to propel your career forward and just to keep listening to lies and hold prejudices to yourself and wishing people who are blacks, asians, hispanics and just those who aren't drinking the koolaid like you to either go to hell or be like you. I am to say what do you actually know of Jesus?  When in the real world you treat people in a way that is evil and try to harm them and do everything possible to live a fantasy where you are just saying you know some person who died years ago in a terrible fashion when you could never. Especially when you don't act any type of moral way. What does Jesus get a say about anything? Can he appear and dismiss the nutjobs who use his name for slavery, atrocities, and just a lifestyle that just creates evil in the world? He cannot appear physically for people to say anything on his behave. If anything he could only appear in those who actually do good in the world and not those who carry this bigoted and messed up ideas that are evil in the world we actually live. It harms people. People of color, women, gay individuals and just those who wish not to be indoctrinated by this false appreciation for a person. Its okay to say that you know him spiritually but that all goes to shit when whatever you believe harms people who exist today and do not want to exist under your nonsense poison religion context. 

    I am to say many people wanted to act as if I was Jesus in fall 2013 or some enigma that exists in that nature. Anyone can make up some nonsense on how Jesus saved them and later just turn out to be a shitty fucking person. Anyone can make up an idea about you and it not be true folks and then they can add on that lie and lie and lie again. The people never wanting to confront the real person but just this image they made up. I mean some people fall in love with an image and get heartbroken by it and inspired to vengeance. I mean in society we have double standards. Its definitely not okay for men to do this stalker type behavior but let women do it and suddenly its alright. These women can be racist, evil, pyscho-pathetic and just anything of trash and they be good. Men are to just take it. I am to say that in summer 2018, when you try to confront some women so they will stop bothering you after five years by this point; they refuse to even talk back to you. They prefer to live behind these false images. People just had these abnormal fixations with this false image of me you can say and even to this day hold onto them. It was in summer 2015, I begun to realize the real nature of people and that really all these people wanted to pretend as if they knew me when they did not. They did not care to even know me but just prattle around a false image.