it all comes to light.

      Most annoying thing ever is when people literally don't understand that they might think of theirselves but they contribute nothing for anyone even the common decency to give them respect and in all honesty; there are too many people out there like that. I have come to a realization that this site is not based on a lie. It is a based off of seeing what you wish would be in reality or what actually does exist in reality. Yet I am to say I have been opened to some things that I was closed minded too. That betrayal is just intimate when you are a creator; who knows when people will turn on you because you are not providing them with some means of "people throwing theirselves in a front of a train to uphold a cultural standard and status quo that ultimately does not matter". I mean you could even be doing that still with your art and just being apart of a cumbersome, nonsense and total bullshit lifestyle but they will just cast you aside for the type of piss poor quality living they enjoy.  I mean; should people be considering keeping the same bad and immoral cultural standards their parents had? No, they should not keep considering the same bad and immoral standards. I mean, do people live as the culture of the Romans? No, society has ultimately progressed but yet people want to resist change-they want to resist the furthering of culture and ultimately just want to grip to some shackle that keeps them from thinking, truly breathing and keeps them afraid and quick to act out in violence.

     In life; there are some people who you would not expect to be racist but they are because you never knew the real them. Sharon Osbourne, the host of the Bachelor former and the contestant who won the "Black Bachelor's season"-these are people who basically got over the radar in not being racist for a time and a great one at that. But yet for those in the know; eagerly could know that they were racist by the manners in which they treat people and distance theirselves from real living people who progress society. Ultimately these people when caught just expect people to turn the other way because they don't give a fuck about the issues at the base of anything. They can never understand why they are wrong, don't want to and no level of talking will reverse their course. They have gone so long with a certain behavior that it is normal for them to disregard the feelings, discomfort, pain and yes pawn respect for people on them being "crybabies" of a sort. As if people are supposed to sit there and just take ideas that paint them as the lesser, the secondary and the 3rd many times. I tell you, it is so fucked up some nasty bitch can go into a spa and shot the people and the police say that the workers inside where apart of prostitution based off harmful stereotypes about their race and their workplace. So ingrained is turning the other check and not even daring to see that you are the wrong and in the wrong-that these below the radar people when exposed can never be trusted again. Because guess what; some people just make up bullshit just to validate their misinformed and wrong opinions and they have been doing the shit all the long. I mean should it surprise you that Sharon Osbourne-British and the wife of not one of the best rock musicians in terms of not being a bigot would literally support Pier Morgan; who literally drags anyone who is black down? And readily took part in the racist media circus around Megan Markle? I don't know if people in the United States know anymore, but literally-there is a reason people especially blacks in the Americas don't really give a fuck about the royals. Its is because they basically were the great proliferators of slavery. The British had the most colonies across the world at one point and slaves from here to there. A person who supports the British monarchy and shows such interest in portraying people as racist stereotypes as found in the British press and media-and supports those with the same sentiments; is a fucking racist. Yet it will never surface until the glass ceiling is pierced. Until the web of lies and hiding under political idealisms of racist concepts just builds up, the media does not know or care to know until its logically apparent that this person is a racist.

   Yet for those who are outside the media, some people are just going to be those iffy people and whilst you have no exact truth as their statements are never clear and wide; the whole premise that a "glass ceiling exists " and one that will be "eventually pierced" is too much for people. They ultimately realize one day and somehow this person will show their true colors. Let's just say this is actually something in which many groups of people go through and not just on the basis of race. It can be on the basis of "will this person respect me and who I am and aim to be". Race in fact could just be apart of that question albeit smaller. Much to which I face is that really; I try to chunk such questions out the window and give things a try because I already know the answer many times. People reading is a skill. It also can be warped, especially when you are racist. The racist people seem to just want to be make believe gods and that everything has to be catered to them and that the real history must never be told. Modern media has had people convinced that British Royalty is some nice romantic and fairytale advent and place in life guaranteed to certain few people. But in reality this is just a myth. The royal family has blood on its hands. Americans especially should not even be supporting a monarchy even as a pop culture sensation for this history as well. You should not even expect a fairytale from slavery, genocide, tons of rape and colonization! If anything people have come to grips with reality; the monarchy in Britain today is just a place where and which racism in this world was greatly borne and still exists.  The question of "how dark your children will be?" is ultimately a racist one when considering historical contexts of the who is asking. There is a reason all the racists in America try to defend the monarchy despite American/British history; it is because it is racist. I am saying that in life many people hide under fairytale makeup and ideals but in reality are "just a bitch". There is a saying where people say, " it hurts like a bitch". Realizing the real implications of bigots in hiding is painful.

I mean if you watched the Bachelor, the man picked someone he thought he could "live with". But ultimately it was a losing game because she basically was just a KKK type racist in hiding. It takes a certain audacity to go to an antebellum party in 2018 when an individual by the laws of the country and the fact they are in college is an adult; then claiming that it was some "simple mistake". It was not a simple mistake. It was a choice by design and it was choice they were proud of. But truly who gives a fuck about them when a dude basically puts all his hopes and dreams in them for them to just turn out to be a snake in the bed. Whilst this guy on the Bachelor was kinda stupid and had two opportunities to not screw up with people who were actually showing they cared for him and not their own self pity drama of not getting enough time with him( and seeing him with the other contestants); it is much to be said that just because someone is friendly-does not mean they cannot be bad. That they cannot be intolerably racist and hateful.

I was made to reflect on how many times I have basically been led astray by people. People who seem alright but they for their difference of views and opinions and yes-way of life, are absolutely problematic. Some people might see some type of reality where you are just an "easy person" in which they never have to express these darker interests of theirs with. Many times as in real life people think I am kid or younger than them; will just be kind perceiving you would never be able to detect their true character. Sometimes, you can find yourself having a crush on these people when they are women. But really are made eventually to realize that they ultimately just see you as an alternate. No one in which they can true with. So many people have distanced theirselves from me because they realize that the more they know about me; the more they will have to reveal of theirselves and/or realize I know what is the crux of their real character. Truly; it is not a white people thing at all but yet a rhetoric that has been started by the British Monarchy long ago and they continue their sad graces today, obviously. It is to be said in my experience you can just feel these people fluttering around like hummingbirds just to get the nectar out of you and when this "nectar" is gone. When the honeymoon phrase is over and when you must really get to know them as there is such a time like when you literally drop sugar , salt or some colored koolaid powder in water-it must eventually dissolve. There is never a time in which it will not dissolve as these are the rules of nature. These people flutter and they flutter until they cannot anymore. The plant in which you are pushed up roses and thorns each and every time they arise to the occasion of being in your presence. Saying things that aren't appropriate, voicing concern for you speaking another language, voting for a democratic candidate, coming at you for  having a life that is based on reason and is secular; these roses and thorns are to guard you when a person is invading your space, freedoms, safety and life you wish to have with their sayings and their doings. Sayings and doings that invalidate the one simple expectation where you are an equal person and respected as the such. Eventually people say too much and there is a whole rose and thorn bush grown vertically and these people having to flutter ever higher to get to the nectar. Until all favor is just lost and the glass ceiling is pierced.

Its is remarkable that people tolerate such an inconvenience. But are forced to otherwise because they perceive that this person is somewhat less than a threat than those who are outspoken viciously about what they are on about, realize they would not have alot of backing and support from their accusations and in the eyes of many people around them would just be causing a fuss and stir. Ergo much alot in society many people already know a person is racist and harmful to them because many times they already know the cues to how a person is racist. They don't even need the powder to dissolve in the water to know. They don't need to learn past the "simple stuff" with this person to recognize them as a bigot. But earnestly have to wait, take precautions to not say the wrong thing and never turn the cheek that is turned to them until the one day the person has said too much to be allowed to exist in harmony with others. To say that you have to wait for these people to thoroughly assault you with ideas that you do not agree with and that place you as a secondary individual before they are caught which can be a long time is a horrendous abuse and a harassment. Truly many people rather up and leave from a place than be continually harassed. Such to say in the Sharon Osbourne case, two co-hosts did leave and of course-separate times than another. Why? Because people can only tolerate so much and then some people can only tolerate so much indignity before they speak out. Yet really enough it is not these people who cause a stir. It is the individual who enacts on divisive and terrible ideals of placing others as secondaries and non-equals and dotting an equation on how they can get away with their shitty behavior. Namely, it is the company's fault for allowing their behavior on and on through the years without realizing a category person of a nuisance and making efforts to weed them out. Companies don't want high turnovers and a bad workplace culture so they invest in having the best people who can get along with others. Ultimately, you cannot get along with a person who deems theirselves higher than you on the estate of their physical being and degrades you as inferior as well many others. It is not people's fault for creating "a fuss" when the toxic person is actually the one who created it. Namely has no remorse in creating it and thinks others should tolerate it because they must be god's chosen people by their race right? People have a right to defend theirselves and strangely those who were secretly racist just want people to pretend to believe their lies and nonsense-so they can once again be all about theirselves over others and thinking they are higher than others. People don't ever have to give them that right and many will not; it is in a racist nature to ask forgiveness for what cannot be forgiven. They want the issue of the cards stacking up to pierce the glass ceiling to go away but for people to do that would belittle theirselves and the problems, social anxiety and just fucked up things they had to endure because of these people. 

      Namely, a person should never belittle they went through harassment but say they did and who exactly did it and why they did it and just how confident the person was when they did it/were doing it. Racism should not be hidden. It should be exposed.

     Blacks, Asians, Hispanics and all other minorities are people and they should never be forced away from being treated as such for the comfort of people to pose they have higher morals than them in the first place. There is no right to racism and whatever you do wrong will eventually come to light.