A comedic reason.

     I am going to take a moment to realize the potential lost of fall 2016. To people who are the head and center of the internet; this Dream and Tik Tokers aka people 18 and maybe 21 years old where like 13 or 16 years old in the past of fall 2016-many people don't have a great context of that time because they were still children. So I am going to pretend as if people don't know what it was like to live in the time period as a person who was 21 years old. It was five years ago but the scales of what became this future changed then. Could anyone ponder that in fall 2016 people were going to be dying in heavy numbers in some pandemic? I never dreamed 2020 and 2021 would hold such terrible things but yet here we are. There was a time for that time period in fall 2016  to be something much more yet for all people a person could come about they wished the absolute worst. There was a time were a person was just trying to live within their means and not push theirselves excessively. There is a time people have to be realistic in what they can do but at certain time actually short theirselves of what they can actually do. I am to say I could have really just realized that I would have to take the works of mine into my own hands and not hope that any institution would aide me. Alas, a person would be very betrayed by a system that just praises hatred and racism towards many people and just over benefits and privilege to another. Living in a day to day "in your means" to get to some support place that is not really the such but a place that is over runned by filth and agony. But yet people don't understand this and just think you are just someone to leverage hatred onto and blame for their lives being shitty and ultimately don't understand even at all how the system surely does not benefit them. Mind me saying this not at all but something that pisses me off is strangers mainly women thinking that they own me and even know me. A person surely could not get any respect.  I would say that I should not have left things up to time in fall 2015 because there was like a mob of people after you.  People who just want to think they are the only people who exist and that their problems are the only ones that matter. It selfish and evil. They never understand other people but just live like animals; pegging certain shapes as prey and others as predators. When you live constantly amongst people who are like this; it is to say there is no law in the land and there is no justice and sure enough you are only the man amongst the damned animals.

     There is to be said that when larger institutions like schools fail to realize their duty to assist culture and civility; all they promote is a standard of repeat words and phrases that may as well mean nothing to anyone when no one learns shit.  They don't truly encourage anything but negative and their own twisted "by the status quo" which is just a regurgitation of materials that will not help anyone really much when it does not fit into their life goals. One shoe never fits all. Pretending that everyone is the same but just a different shade is lunacy and is admittance of behaviors that are preserve, discriminatory and just plain out evil.

    I went into both fall 2015 and 2016 living in the means of what I could do because honestly a person was just barreled dry from the fierce opposition and negativity of the times before. Never was a college experience positive. I slept outside the dorm room I lived in for a great deal of time because the school just failed to ensure the proper culture at all from the get go. Truly just matching people up with people they have no business even being alongside. People who are mentally sick who have no business even being amongst people who they can endanger. Talk about black people in the 3rd ward being the threat? Its a fucking joke when you turn around and realize these people don't fucking stalk you in the fall 2014 and you have to realize or not if they are or aren't. If these people aren't trying to gang up on you! Just always trying to please these people's ideal of you but truly these people don't like you; these ugly fucking women only like the fact of you being their not as a person but as a package of woefully fed diversity crap. 

     You come to only do the things done in fall 2015 and 2016 to great resolves to go forward and possibly even confirm things of what you have experienced are true and try to distance yourself from the true negativity that even the higher educational state has against creatives, any free thinking person and people of color. But its impossible to escape and it is corruption at its finest that whatever action to move forward  in a place is just pissed on when that place is corrupt as well. I would be focusing on "developing a portfolio" in fall 2015 and 2016 that I never would have imagined the level of vitriol and hate the digital media dean at the community college would give me for my portfolio and just thought it was appropriate to hell at me for the fact of it all. Then I was in great pain for the evil that was in that place that hindered me in fall 2016 but then I saw it. How this guy's daughter benefited so well and I and many others in that class were treated like next level shite. Could you blame one dude who sat nearest me from not wanting to come to class? It just that I had such optimistic goals to build this portfolio to help me out in the program but come to find out nothing would matter because the program was not reputable; it was racist and whilst a person could pass off as if they knew anything from the teachers-no, you learned it from yourself.  

You were the only person who gave a damn about your education and were just playing believe the place was any great place. It was corrupt and for all intents and purposes a person knew that when they were attacked in that place in fall 2016. The teacher being a racist could just be a continuation of the same thing. How greatly am to tell you that higher education just tries to criminalize people of color especially black people for having a sense of self, creativity and anything that is not this psuedo academic shit. They try to criminalize people not being the little clogs who buy into their system and that it works; when those people are frank fucking cowards who just complain about working as clogs at this engineering places and other places of that sort. You really want to know whose the benefit of their people? Those who don't think they are higher than people who their same race or other people just because they have an engineering degree, mother fucker.  I come to say that education could have been so much more than pitting one people of all races against their least learned counterparts. You think Ben Carson is such the hero of the black people now?  No, he is not; but just a piece of shit who really does not understand the reality of anything but is just there. Just existing. Many people live life just existing but life is not for that type of stuff. Life is more than that. People truly get caught up in delusions of what reality is and never realize it something more and they get complacent and this makes it so much easier for you to get taken out by something you never expected but was in the making like covid 19. Truly if people weren't geared to be complete complacent asshats; would they not recognize future dangers of the world?

    An expectation of being treated well despite what you aim to do is not a complacency but it is something that should not be questioned in a country that is socioeconomically complex and touts democracy. How much democracy is there to even live your damned life? When you have to bleed gallons of blood to create comics and even live life as you as a black person or any good willing person who is not looking to terrorize or guilt others who have no stake in anything; its pretty terrible. The potential of things that could have happened in fall 2016 where null and void because people only want one thing upon you and really don't care about you, your life, your ambitions or anything at all. You know what I think of people who call theirselves hardworking and beckon onto others to get a" real job"  or some shit like that; deplorables. People who beckon onto the potentials to become in the world anything and just decide that everyone has to be like them and just like them because they are too cowardly, too stupid and frankly  so fucking animalistic that they can not see anything any other way. But the world of course is open and it is not this closed religious conservative text book. I take a moment to say fuck higher education because surely it only teaches indifference to all the choices to be in the world and just all the people in it. It only mistreats people of color into a delusion of a state that is salvation but which is truly not. People in higher education surely are smart enough to come to the same conclusions but don't because they just too like to believe everything has to exist to support their ideals and agendas on people and what they could be. Why in the fuck should people read these fucking reports about minorities as if they are fucking animals and these "geniuses" ascribe what is wrong with them yet cannot point out the wrongs in their own way of thing which is just as much republican red neck saying, "get a real job" as any.

  Folks you don't know annoyance and just brutality until you are the one the system that is trying to take you down and make you but a number. Using clever tactics and tools to do it and guess what?  People who go to college all flock together. Zuckerberg, the blogger maintenance crew and developers and just many people who are over social media or where over them just hold the same fucking nonsense values that are unintelligent and very self fulfilling that their profession is the one above them all or certain professions are.  We never have these subtle psas by these companies like Intel or Microsoft trying to act like these science based professions are the greatest standard for the best life for people of color. These days they just say, " we got to get these girls into STEM degrees and jobs". But what if people don't want to do that shit? What if people want to create comics for a living or make their own cartoons. Self will must not exist in these instances because the "poor and the minority" cannot be beggars of choosers or be taken seriously behind the artistic right. When so much of fucking culture comes from asians, hispanics and greatly black people. What the fuck you would be doing in a world full of white people? Fucking listening to fucking country music and having to defend your little shite settlement from other tribes because guess what western society could never prosper without slaves and their blood. Its kinda terrifying that a person would have to spill their fucking blood just to get to what they want to fucking do. I have beat around the mother fucking bush but ergo folks; I will never be the one to tell you that what I have do is some easy frivolous thing. Its an act that spits in the face of corrupt and evil people, people who of course don't like to be proven wrong about other people and come to get at you. Violence is all higher education actually ensues to people of color who have real ambitions and not these rather conforming to bullshit views that a person can be redeemed as a person when learning these Stem fields.

   I am to say that truly life in America around these colleges is just terrible and really much there need to be alternatives to how things are done these days because it fails so many people. To think that creativity and that type of stuff is for babies or whatever. The whole mentality of hating art and those who do it and this image of a poor artist is just contrary to a good sense of civility in any man and woman and just creates the most robotic, insincere, fake, arbitrary clogs who just say anything to make some fucking money. I am to say that everyone can create and whilst many will not find values in it; they cannot dismiss the rights of others to create the works or try to hinder them which is exactly what higher education, facebook, blogger and other social media do.  Furthermore these places cannot be taken seriously when they try to embrace arts or anything. Its all a joke. When I look back to fall 2016, I see that same joke play out over and over again. I have done what I have done earlier this year to quit the loop of this joke and the punchlines leading up to it. I will now tell a comprehensive story of fall 2015 but in private as I don't trust this place as they have deleted posts about fall 2015 for some comedic reason.