mk mzodern day 8

Look to the left;okay.
Behind; alright. This is a funny page to hint a suspicion about a certain individual as not really anyone to like and their gaze is somewhere else denoting that they believe they are higher the situation of everyone else and do not have to act as everyone else. I reason with you in honesty I tried to get the benefit of the doubt to this person by "falling" but akin this person was what you call-thought they were clothed and were not actually at all clothed. Meaning in which anyone could see what they were if given enough time. However, by having this passion to ensue that she was some one value-I basically protected this person by giving them a false sense of pride, such that when other people would venture onto the meaning of my intent they would see something else; they would see two instead of one. One, who so viciously of their own self purpose and thinks no work is required and that no one is going to have conflict with them. Acting as this fellow who was in love, it basically smears the image of this self important already made individual who has calculated all and come through it all and yet has do nothing at all. But munch off of other people. Frankly, I only did this for the benefit of the doubt. Maybe its something else, maybe this person is not so sure of theirselves and thinks that everyone is going to bow to them as some queen of some estate. Maybe they are just a nice individual but with intelligence and pride.


But unfortunately here, that was the opposite, they are not a nice individual, they have no intelligence and they do not even respect theirselves enough to even have pride. This is all I ever ventured from that message gather I sent some time ago to this woman. However it showed how controlling the woman was, she believed she could tell you how you felt and how you knew nothing about anything and that she basically could do anything she wanted with you and not face any consequences. As if leading on was not a crime- doing other terrible crimes as targeting people and setting up situations of their debauchery was not enough. What is terrible is like here with her ego to prevail over others and have victory already achieved so damn sure of herself and putting everyone do, she lack the quality of even being able to be trusted by anyone without betraying their trust. Simply to say the girl herself believed that she was a goddess and if not a person without any merit to let say; even consider that their end goal could not be achieved. And while this particular individual shifts foot never to consider they are human at all and rather that in the end they will win without ever considering the fact that they were not well guarded from the start and if I never intervened and gave off the impression that I liked them-other people who never have seen the facade, of two but one. And considered not two, but one. And one who basically was out to just step over people and basically displayed that very prompt so and if not hindered by their worry about this fellow with this face. They would continue to be this guise of lament to terrorize other people in thinking its their right to step over people because in their mind, their place in life means nothing to this goal that they are knitted to believe is going to happen just because they think so and nothing more. In this manner of thinking; they think like "Gods".

I say all this because as the story goes along, you see why this person on the 3rd floor of the dorm attacked 3rd floor dorm people and most of the people in which I had conversation and real interest lied on the 3rd floor and this spawn of woman if not fucked people over with her way of being and tied directly into the system if not a head of the system indeed as if some type of goddess to control people.

However for the past perspective, I just noticed her character traits as snobby and dignified and when she spoke it became clear that she aimed to place everyone down on a rung and that she was this ace student and that she could answer all the questions and was much better than everyone and quick to put things as they are-just to her. Its not hard to fall in love with an illusion of what actually on second thought could just be a prideful woman and intelligent woman, but the only dead give away is how " quick to put things as they are" she was. And such that she was not a normal individual like everyone else and just expected a pie to be there just because she said so. However there was no real way to conclude this as equally true unless you wait four years after she berates you with hellos and all these welcome gestures-message her again and she asserts " quick to put things as they are". You do not love her and never could like her and would never hear about why you even liked them in the first place and will assert why you even liked them at all if any omission short of rejection of the idea.
She is a level on her own and lives in this goddess realm and people who "are like you" cannot understand her. But you can, because the  " quick to put things as they are" is not as things really truly are. Without me doing her this service of protecting her goddess way of being from everyone else-there would have been more fights as she came along people in the semester and eventually would have to reconsider her approach of doing things which by the way would only have made things worse for her and everyone else. Everyone would know what she is and who she is and no one would want to be bothered by her.

The person as is, was a creepy fellow, you never really saw the person interacting with anyone at all but her own damn self image in what she saw in other people. She played games with many folks and I am sure the hello gaze was used on another individual who I happened to know. She in all honesty- was only a follow to know and not a know to truly know. She never truly interacted with other people and was all but absent from any type of activity that anyone usually engages in. She never went into any of the events and by golly people you never see else even went to these events in some way or some form. She stayed secluded nearly everytime you say her and she only could be found doing laundry, or going up the stairs or the elevator and that is if you were that unlucky to be bothered by her indeed. She did not know however how truly weak she was thinking everything she sought to do was preordained and just as much, she was going to become the big hero without an ounce of real work nor respect of the environment nor people. Just so she could say; I got what I wanted in the ending. Had I not done anything at all but continue this acceptance of her as a romantic and continued to look out for the individual-they would have become a pancake. Because no one likes people who come and say "the sky is orange" when it certainly is blue. Certainly discounts even the fact that people endured much to see if they were anyone to hang out with at all. Certainly is not smart enough to even recognize when people endure to be with them and see who truly they are.  Certainly just ties into the culture of that place of putting people down especially those of color, if not using them as fellow friend was used, she probably led the poor guy on as well as there was much discourse about her in the guy's conversation with another friend who also lived on the 3rd floor with the veil of her "hello" as certainly a common constant.


She probably just thinks in her mind she can assign roles to people in how they play into her story, that is already there and anyone who gets in her way is just an obstacle to avoid and has to put on a fake face, just so no one catches on to her true behavior about doing things.And if anyone says they have worked to be with her, she as not understanding the value of work or anything that is not superficial will say, " that you could not be possibly in love with me". She thinks she can put you in your place in a world that does not exist, and frankly this is not kindergarten and people need not be placed as toys. Her guidance is my guided, people are not meant to be placed in events that are of your making and you never ask them if they really want to be there or not. You just place them in.
You do not venture, you do not ask, you already know who they are and moreso; you could frankly just call them your girlfriend, your bitch, your dog or your monkey for all that matters. The search for the answer of who this person was, never at any moment calling this person as mine or any title of mine or with me in any such romantic manner of such great social importance as if we were anything at all. It was just a search, and a one that was not misguided as this individual is the qualm of many people's troubles in that building and if not that entire estate in part. Added even more to a hostile environment and viewed people with such zealous disrespect of things that actually have value in this world, writling like a witch, as if to say; " you could not be with me- you do not love me and nor do you know me. I can do whatever I want you, bewarned".

Such a person should not ever be allowed on a campus and rather should be forced to go under help instead of being the help. As I have concerns for many people who venture to a pyschologist who tells them- this is what you are and nothing more; a money making device for me. Saying,"I will subscribe you all the pills I can find and delay your real solution until I make so much money off of you- I keep you as a slave." And believe or not, this is most likely how such goddess get their start in ruining people's lives in an environment such as this which allows people to fuck with others and never be reprimanded for their behavior of putting their lives and information in danger among other things such as allowing criminals like this particular girl to roam around an crucifying everyone. I look uneasily because I know exactly what I have to do with my information I gathered in those moments in class to reason; that to diminish a potential monster-you have to befriend it especially when they come with a goddess complex of just making things appear out of thin air.