Releases.

To be honest; it is not realistic to say the yield of stuff I have created will be released in like 6 days or something like that. Let us understand that to expand a series out to 4 pages each serial takes about a week to do and most insured that is only because of my training that I've done myself that I can even move that fast and create and cogent story. Yet it is not possibly possible even to expect to publish all the works there are that require let's say 56 weeks to complete-in six days. It is just not possible. Solely it will take a year to publish them all so let's say by 2019~these works will be completed. But that is just a mass assumption. Here at MK MZODERN has always about pushing boundaries and going past such troubling problems such as this; using many steps and methods. However; I do consider that really it is unsafe for one individual to do all this work and be under all this aggression and stress and truly never get a break. To say that Shark on Campus was not an easy work and takes quiet a bit of knowledge of photoshop to get the job done and the program does not even work and relatively I have been sick and a bit out by things of social interaction with certain "peoples"~very hard to do. But that does not mean that everything will be hard forever. Maybe to just continue doing it will work and help you achieve something better. Yet the strain of working with no near support is backbreaking. People just everywhere out to get ya and no one respects your work. Maybe you just speed up everything such as releases to forgo attacks and the weakness of yourself allowing interruptions. That you should run through the fire!

Well I have been running and running and even took advantage of the run but I am tried of running and running and to be said not ever being able to get anything done that is but in a run. I had this nobody so called "friend" childishly say; this is why you have no friends. But yet this person is not even a writer and for what I found them on a writer site; they are no use as a peer when they are just no longer a writer. No people did not come on that site just to speak with teenagers their own age and fuck around-they came to speak with people who were truly working towards their goals. But many weren't and just fucked around and frankly shows how much they are willing to even work at what they want and yet at anything. A broken individual who had something they wanted to work to achieve but waste time, opportunity and all else resources and even their own strength and talent to
just fuck around and take up some job and work it half assed- is no use to any employer. These people even if they were to reach their peak or promotion would offer nothing because they simply have no ethic of hard work or that planning and working towards goals works instead of moping around about how so hard the world is unfair to them! They have no passion and for something they did-they ditched and how are they going to have any passion for anything later even their "job"!? They will simply lie they like their job but really do not and even struggle to do that job well. People; broken people are overlooked but in name it is their fault for not standing up. For not getting help and just being a drag on someone's else estate. What type of virtue are we promoting when we say art and craft cannot be done? The one of high unmotivation and highly high constructive destructive complacency. From everything in life to politics and that is what is faced by us today. The school only reinforces this with an "A" batch of students. The people think they are the "A" crop because really in their life if they had anything they wanted truly to be passionate about people tell them they cannot do it and they just believe that out of their pursuit to be a superior amongst everyone. Engaging thoughts that some people are superior and others are not. Then in further education told only certain major make money and happy lives and that further only certain people and sororities do
and that certain political ideals are stronger than others. And that certain people are not equals as the rest and ultimately generalized as a weaker species than an equal.

I do not stop to say that this friend of mine is a complete and utter disgrace to what people should be driven to do. So eager to blame the world for everything and everyone who points out reality; they never clarify their role inside and want to be innocent as if a child. But children are never innocent of the paths they want to take in life. They decide because they are people and at some point at some age you become an adult and everyone recognizes you for all the decisions you have and have not made.
But you should be respected for making decisions that make life truly great and successful and not doddering and struggling. The main theme of life is not struggle it is to reach a goal. Many people after they graduate college think for all the nonsense programmed into them that what people have already and always said will become reality and that they will make money and be happy and all these end results and ideas but these are just Fathoms. These are goals that are just delusions and there is namely no result to get there at all or from the stand point of believing superiority and a delusioned estate! If you do not work - you do not get the prize and that is what people don't get here in this world. Wanting to banish people for simply reaching or wanting to reach for their ambitions and end results. Trying to kill them and murder them as if they were so wrong to do it. But no. My friends; certain ideals can be reached and those are the ones that are bound by logic and work to reach them. Not ideas about people you do not know nothing about and want to enact as if you are god over them as if they are these items who have objectives you name but really none objectives exist in reality. Such is the basis of racism. It is highly time that people not doubt human strength to create but embrace and reject all who destroy and hate.

The last two years have been hard but I will say that much of growing up is hard but you learn to accept that only you have responsibility for yourself and what happens and no one else does. You define the world and you become the eagle or the hawk you wish to be. Pitying completely the world for your lack of effort does nothing at all! In light of the complacency and utter sheer annoyance I find myself in. I will; not stop! I will invite and invent the way to complete all my works in a smaller about of time to around maybe three months into the new year or even up to summer. I will not give up. But recognize that there are certain things that make it hard to be recognizable. But when you refuse to even inspect that something may be hard to be recognizable and walk as if you own the world or utterly pained by it-you seek to be a god who realizes the world as an illusion it is not! And will treat people as if illusions of the ideas you like and hate and never respect them as they truly are.
When you give up and just be complacent; you have no right to be angry at the world and act out to harm yourself and others.

For what can be said; in romantics- I was always sidelined by couples and bullies and just people who were twisted inside to give a decency about real social life and not bark or howl at people and try to mate with them. Or look at them with these eyes and just try to fuck with them or fuck them.
I; eventually realized that I was compliant by even trying. Not even developing any real expectations of a romantic world or the elements of it in the world. Just believing I knew and trusting people whom seemed like good people but were just abusers because only had definition from abuse or being constantly sidelined. I was busy in my creative work but eventually I took a stand to try and improve and yet defend myself in the romantic manner. Many people will quickly get the wrong ideas about "ya" and only coming from a defensive and abusive romantic matter with a full view of the world you will be encouraged to think there is no one out there and that there is no one who can help and there is no point and become closed forever to accept the same abuse and even worse as the world itself is proving to be more hostile to people who have certain identity; one of sanity. You will be forced at one point to accept there is no one ideally and you should never ever think about trying or that there is and that people are wrong and perception do not even know who the fuck you are to even be controlling your image and your actions and yet your romantic life and that you should continue to try because it is in the best image for the best romantic life for you to try and not be caught up in people's mindgames. The gross and nasty mindgames; I have no related any of the sort but mindgames happen all the time and only by choosing to believe that there is a path at the end for victory and success yet in sanity and not in grief, suppression or self hatred or permitting hatred of others can you truly be free of these people and their wastes of time; these mindgames. You can walk forward to a better tomorrow where you are a player in your own romantic life and not shying away from it like a totally boon. It is the same with politics and art; some people just do not want to eat new foods and grow up or be a well rounded person~ they do not want to have a political life nor an artistic one and are stupid to believe that having this aspect would take up their lives. But an excuse. There are many areas of your life and you cannot deny some that all well rounded humans have. You cannot be kid who refuses to eat their veggies or try new foods or things and become caught up, spoiled and coddled and refusing to live their life to its fullest potential with many good aspects.
Some people never grow up at all. Some people never learn any romantic courtship or education passed the norms they are exposed to-often hated and kept to the courtship of their race and species as a holy item to accomplish or else worse. Introduced to the ideas that sexual abuse and all else are good traits to have in a relationship and nothing more should be expected. That you have no right to date anyone "you damned whatever the fuck class of character trope nerdy nigger you are"! And just be disrespected and watch people spoon over you. I say no more and enough is certainly enough. I learned to venture truly into the romantic world and not keep to dreams and illusions. I have wakened to say that some dreams can exist but can only be said accomplished if both parties agree and are civil towards another and if there exists a corresponding dream or want to a higher degree in all realms of respect and positivity!

But yet people borne with no struggle and just have it as it is and how they like it are not as to be said sane and sound individuals who could possibly know real life struggle to even know what is like to work and truly live in the society and yet world they do. People who have it easy and are these racial favorites and cultural favorites or just generally all together social favorites to forever have these easy and available relationships; and take pride and consideration in outing people who seem strange, creepy or just the opposite of theirselves and frankly have none the characteristics that are acceptance to them-never truly up happy. When especially they are so closed minded to their ultimate "luck" that eventually fades away in adult hood. And yes marriage. And they are forced then on in the term of the lack of conviction of satisification or end of a marriage or long relationship forced to learn the rules of love all over again and cause adultery, perpetrate racial stereotypes no matter their race and just make life harder for those who just want to do it properly and not take advantage of some estate of prestige and privilege of their happenstance and luck to be socially popular and viable that they were so wanted in the past. But albeit you will not be wanted; when you are old and gray as you were when you were young. People who eventually learn overtime to right romantics education wrongs and try to do right eventually win even if it does not work out. They will know who to hook up with and what exactly to do when a marriage fails or long relationship does. They will still have skills and still a romantic life and people bound by luck and just what popularity was or acceptable partners were find theirselves with no device to fix them up in their later life. There is no one in your work place who will be a suitable racial pairing that you parents will agree too or ultimately a "likable convenient person" who will be bound to you just because you are both " a students" on the honor roll and trying to go to a prestigious college. Because such conventions are only bound by young age without it; there is nothing to your romantic life but a bunch of bullshit and hatred self and upon others and frankly that ain't love but just lust and lust for ambition of hatred, regime of it and appreciation of self fabricated god divinity of a people in a society and lust for ambition and life that ultimately cannot be reached.


I however do not want to be just content just because I spat in the devil's face. I time and time again proved my ambitions. I want to be convinced not for the sake of survival but for the sake of a completion of a dream-that I do certain continue to create comics and other things into the great future and what that ultimately means is getting rid of any hinderance, unhelpful hesitation or road block; which the list of releases has become. It will be a challenge to overcome just like that of entering romantic life and not sticking to the hatred and abuse of people and needing a constant savior in the form of a crush or good people. It will be a challenge that may have day to day but yet some never start in any way. But I will go forth and hone my skill and never be bound on a perch to anything. Frankly I believe I can get it done and I will. And that is what will come of here next.
Do count on it.



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