Stories to be told and regrets.

 Greatly a large part of fall 2016 I have left behind is the fact that a person had so much hope for the women in college especially the ones you met in the past but all that could be said is that you were met by the vast majority of twisted and evil people therein instead of the humane normal people therein. These people perverting spirituality to mean anything superfluous relegating any connection to you as just a thing of a joke, a thing to coward out of and not to even do the basic human good. So people lie to theirselves they like you and then they lie again to convince theirselves they don't like you. Such to say if you stand for nothing you fall for anything. Anything convenient, indeed, a person looks like a convenience whilst in an environment where people are to "respect diversity" but actually are racist to a heavy extreme. Yet when you are not in the place they will never seek you out because everything is just a game of status to them. You only meant something that you never meant to meant but they placed on you to gain status in a place they assume the game was " to be as a false well meaning and decent human being as possible". Trying so hard to provide a benefit for these people I realized at the start of fall 2016 after an attack is paramount to hating oneself and literally to be taken as a joke by people who don't live in good embraces of making any communities better or society better or even acting as good people. But people who get away for how poorly they want to act and behave and as well just piss on people they have no understanding of and ironically despite their racial equality panderings just hate people based on their color. 

I will say a person had works prior to an attack to celebrate some found memories with people of the past and noticeably the person who always said hello to me in the elevator; but these people who are frankly animals ruined any good things going for them. If a person ever reached out; it was to hear their side of things but really much of these people are incapable of basic skills that many people who never go to college have. I make now certain works to show the full truth of things and to mock the whole idea these were found memories at all when they were just set ups for crazy and evil women to make up serious fantasies about a person and change reality to what it is not. And yes; maybe if a person changes your fucking hair color in a story it is not because they forgot your hair color at all-it was to protect you but ergo none of these people deserve protection. They just need to realize the truth. They are the antagonists and went far too fucking far with their disrespect to humanity and spirtuality which can connect two humans in the essence of love. Have sorely mocked me and made my life living hell. I don't want to make other people's lives living hell but I am not going to take disrespect against me lightly so that it is permissible and allowed. I deserved to be better treated and not attacked by people with nuts and bolts missing.