So greatly hate.

 I realize that for all the fears you would have about speaking to women and trying to romantically with them in the college sphere. Don't worry; whatever you would do-it would always become a nightmare and all your fears would become true. All my fears would come true. You could be wonder boy for a girl aka try to be their little main character plus but it would never work out when you don't view yourself in such a self centered way or self deposing way. A featured way that makes you an extension of another and not yourself. Such to be said folks; talking to girls or not talking to them gives you the same fucking result. When you are just a good person with a dream. Not a race, not a political side and just a person with a dream. People just expect they should fail and gravitate to people who will make them fail. In seeing you realize their whole shtick is wrong and they don't put enough respect theirselves as people. They cannot even endear to be living in the realm of where people are responsible for their actions. Some people just never want to succeed.

 They can see things working out with you but for all intents and purposes are people who refuse to live by their own accords and take responsibility for their own actions. No, they try to pin it all on other people and worse try to deem a lesser group of people who would trap them in a life they would not want to live. Yet greatly these people don't know anyone, anything and really much make up bullshit to pity theirselves when all their behaviors end them poor social results. Don't try to be with people and them make them out to be an enemy because you just want to be coy from your own true beliefs of hating them. As if forcing a character trait onto a person who you really don't know and does not even have the character trait. Some people are just imbeciles who fancy delusions over reality and that is why so many women miss out on good men. They are so great in pleasing theirselves in rude fantasies that step over people and their boundaries and belittle them. There is to be said that I sure that even if you did even end up with a "happy ending" with some of these people I met in college you would still be looking at a nightmare.

Such to be said most and many people in college are never worth your time and the value of even dating anyone shrinks over time as you engage in higher goals and higher social complex goals whilst they still stay the advancement of a shrewd pest aka a person who cannot even be bothered to get out of their own way to get what they need to achieve. There are no stories of actual happy endings in college I might ponder when so many people get with people who have low goals and low standards in life. People who hinder them and stop them from being great. Only few people actually end up with people who actually help them achieve. I am to say that its like college construes people to be their worst to a toxic mentality that really helps no one and only brings out the demons and devils in society.

I'd like to say a person comes out of an experience fearing the great fears that you fear when you think you like people only to face these horrid fears straight on and everyone treat it as normalcy to occur. Its not normal-its disgusting and greatly I'd like to write in the future of these experiences as apart of my efforts and ties work but in the project called Fears and Love Damnation; the real 1984.

I write here but folks you don't understand the length of hate I get and how much of it is manufactured by universities.