efforts and ties; abnormalcy.

 The most sad thing about college is that you never find anyone who believes in you but people who push further and further that you must believe in yourself greater and greater. Its to the point as if you are fighting a war to exist and to be said if a person has to preserve so much in college; its not a nice place at all. Its so loopy many people want to pretend to be nice but they are never the people who actually even are. There is a veil that must be removed greatly to realize and then consider how many people just hate you and really don't give two fucks about you. It is an effort to pretend as if this is normal when in everything it is abnormal. An abnormalcy condoned by schools when they say nothing and reward it and its behavior. This is how modern college is a nightmare aside from the later elements outside the social.