Just sad.

 You see when you first go to college everything is all friendly because the people want your money and the people want to pretend to be nice. When you leave college if you do not like the certain college and go to another apparently all these friends of yours where fake. To greater clarity the who could be relationships were fake as well. No one wanted to ever reach out to you or do anything at all and ultimately these people come to suffer the grand case of "fomo of you compiling with a 1984 state of things". That if you let the place break you; you would still be there and really much this just shows you as an option and a choice and not a person. Making you the enemy for not doing what these people wanted you to do. These people never liked you if you are to be certain; they only wanted to make use of you as an item and throw you away just like they actually did to people. You were lucky not at all but smart to avoid them when they did not follow you. When they stopped hanging around. Greatly after all the fun times of that near Christmas Break time; everyone just ditch me and basically that was okay.

Yes, technically it does suck but you realize a person had way more fun studying comics than anything else these people could do. A person had grander things to be doing and ultimately there was no one there to be had that was even close to doing what I was doing. Its like you must keep searching for the right people but they never came and so you where just left alone.

Ten years later and none of that stuff is even a memory. It very well could not have happened but some asburd wonky tacky social disaster that you were too kind to let even be. Let people think that they know you just like highschool but no the price is always a high one for that. You think you let people know you and they think they own you. Its funny. These things build up in time and can cost you anything you hope to gain from comics or else. All you end up with are paranoid bitches with some overreaching privy to determine your life and play games with it to confirm racist and sick ideals. That is just sad,