Close Proximity of Things

  If anything seems mean hearted it is because it truly and actually is; I am sick of people who have turned my kindness into some hellish nightmare. There could be girls who would turn into women and well that happened in a decade. These people rejected me, pushed me aside, refused to live a life without me and worse ganged up all up on me in my domain. What is breaking and entering? The thing is these people run away with my heart and never pay the price. They want to feel the ambition of the man but don't want to pay the currency. They rather not spend the time developing anything but run with their hands tied behind their backs back to this starting position but that position is over; it was ten years ago. Many people decided to have fun with other people, decided to build lives with other people, make artworks with other people, fucking give their bodies to people and yet like Adroit Chica think my life is a first person player that you can just turn on when you seem to give some fuck!

Let us be calm; anger never gets anyone anywhere and rather whilst a person would fume and fume at what these people have cheated me of-humanity most of all and just being placed as a second beat ugly fucker under the fucking bed by all kinds of women who seem to be attracted but then excuse theirselves at the terms of commitment and vily premise their superiority feigning greatly on eurocentrism and ultimately disgracing theirselves when a great vein  of the lot is not even white. I never make an intention to date white people or any kind of race above all and hell I never have dated anyone. That is the bait. Got some creepers running up the bill of your patience everyday and all you can do is say nothing knowing these people will never listen to anything but someone beating their ass type of bullshit and a person has no time for that.

Like a person will double down and say it straight that you people deserve nothing but running lose to find that 20 years down the road that you fucked up and there is nothing to even get you that joy you had 30 years ago. Eh, when you are fucking 50 years old and your children go to college and have these great visions of have a spouse and a normal life; pray their fucking asses never meet the motherfucker that is you during college. Pray to god that they find a me and maybe Adriot Chica may save your ass so that you can pretend that you still then have a chance.

Like as if this is a great ego way to say fuck you; no-this is the greatest invention known to man where you got people trying to crucify you because you would not be this filth they wanted of you. I got to tell you; damn shortie why you got be so cruel and what has the big Jamie even done to your bitch ass for you to go off the rails. No, its just that you are crazy and no one has ever put you in your place and you always get what you want and a person not giving you what you want and what you want to see just does not placate you but angers you. Its just that you people need mental help.

In this advent called Calamatia or which I will call it the such is that ultimately-a person was too naive and you never let me speak and you think you could shut up me up by violence and force would stop me. No, it never would. I tolerated many of you people when in reality, I knew good and fucking well none of your matched with me. None of you even have the brain capacity to even be a match with me. You would steal my works leaving that summer 2015 and then everything went to chaos. Made this site into your pigeon hole and not my place because you felt entitled to the genius. Its not yours to have.

Months ago, I tried to make ai write this shit but literally ai is basically the 1984 book all in one where you cannot mention sex, you cannot mention anything some white programmer assumes is racist and ultimately just strewed with unimportant garbage. But it be not worth it, you people forced me down a road I rather not take and since you did-you must know that you will have to suffer the consequences of your acts. I will not hesistate to show the world what animals you truly are. Animal house you wish things to be then I will be the pig. The dicator who regime is solid and everyone and anyone who dare smithe him is bacon.

I be sad sometimes because you have a special day but you cannot share it and nor can you really even exist in the public eye. It is what you fuckers did during Calamatia that ultimately fucks with a person for years. The worst of it in 2017 but alas the real thing is that you choose your path. You never allowed me to speak to save you from this route of suffering. Refusing to hear me and ultimately being so full of self, ego and bullshit that you must be god! Defining a person as ugly and worthless. Maybe you should actually look up the definition and it would be you all for all the 100, 000 definitions there could be and all the words! No one who loves anyone or truly is invested in them would put them on a path to which they would be forced to come back to get you in some form of fashion. I would be stupid to not seek retribution after a person basically throws them into a prison pit where all the prisoners try to murder and murk them rather try their earnest to harass them as they literally are racist and inferior creatures. Like man, none bother to contact me after I leave and think that anything is good enough after the level of harm they have caused. No, you won't ever be truly okay in my books.

You create nothing, you add nothing, you do absolutely nothing to add anything of value to my life! Nothing! You have no place in it but you insist on coming back as if you never did anything and want to be worthy as you objectively thought at the start. Maybe you weren't ever worthy at all and just took for granted a person even being there not even knowing them and writing them off as useless because they did not even come close to your inferior needs. I am saying that when you are stupid as fuck; quacks maybe you should just close your eyes and let someone other than some dumb 70 year old bitch do the thinking for you. If you thought feminism was going to save you from living some inferior life well the joke is on you. 

Maybe you would be better off if you let the man lead instead of thinking you are some superior being because you literally make an embarassment out of yourself. Lol. You harm women whom you want to save from abusive me thinking you are saving them; you are just full of lies and ego and really do not even recognize that you have no ability to decide for others who they will be with. You are just gross thinking that your what you think is feminism is even good when its not but you thinking you control people and thus reality-but no; you don't and ultimately it will just blow up in your face. What gives you the right to be superior than the person living theirselves? What type of nasty eugenic privilege have you become? You think that just because you went to the "superior college" that you can look down on people and be this fictional power player. Power play yourself into some mental health because lord, you have no empathy and not even realize that you were played this hand. You aren't a freed person but just a kept little mongrel whose life is only kept together by a small shred of logic, dignity and sanity.  The people who came at me that day of Calamatia where like animals and rabid beasts. Saying how dare you speak to us because we are gods. I think that is where you have to realize damn; what is going on for you. You come up like a fucking mancin monkey to rip a person's face off and are butt hurt you did not. Like god; be the one to knock yourself out before you dareth do such a thing. If a person was seriously serious-the lot of you would be in court for damages especially the fucker who reported the site on facebook knowing god well that none of you have any case to even be right. You are just evil people.

 Oh, like let me list the damages; invasion of privacy, damage to projects, heinous harrassment and stalking, incitement of riots against me and conspiracy to harm aka making up rumors so that a person is constantly with nothing and always with nothing. Its like do you not understand that your behavior does no good when it constantly teaches women that they can get their way by misbehaving and that your brand of behavior is good. That you can constantly berate a person and their potential women to cause the women to turn against them. Its heinous you did it once but 500 times is just evil. Are you worshipping Hilter to match your fucking quota?

Let me say that all those little lowkey bamzles in distress at the community college just are like inferior animals to you people and pick up your scraps and your want to dos and think its a way to be but its just beyond their means. Oh, I am to say these people not only get put into their place when they act out but the fucking world is not kind to them. They want to be just like you but ultimately no; the world obviously does not have a 70 year groomer out for them at all. No one wants them but they are just a means to the end of you fucking them up just so you can get back at a person not giving a fuck about what damages it does to them and ultimately they just don't last so long after they come up one time or two; they are lucky 3 even survive whatever punishments they get for coming at a person. Its just to be said that these people literally give theirselves to you as their idols. There is no equal but being you.

But what happens to a person who goes to a main college then is kicked out of it; do they go to a community college and do they try again in another state like California? I mean these people who went to this school I went spread across the states like rats in a frenzy to escape the lives they lived; oh but they just cannot let go of Jamie especially the creepers who move to California. Just cannot help yourself for what a person spoke to you like once or twice and it was not even that great. I mean, one just broke thine heart but universe said to me; go higher as the girl was pretty ugly inside and out. I mean another just tries to bounce theirselves into you like three times and maybe you don't react well because you trust people who are this seemingly controlling for that you never really got to socialize with women  your age that well. The one girl you did speak to them and there was a spark; they literally just saw you as sexual fodder and nothing more and so what? Oh, there is one more- a bitch who was too big for the middle eastern breaches. Talking about how they are bi all the time and so diverse and hang out with black people until something happens on a thanksgiving with their colored black bo that they just go bezerk and just go full Trump white. I mean these people are nothing short of trash and like only one graduated from the actual school and only the pushy one does succeed at graduating later on just one year from this post. Graduates, you drunk ho, you made it and you should be proud after all your sorority sisters left you in the dust and you were kicked out of the throuple and now your former roommate and the girl you liked live together and no one else remembers your ass after you flopped out in spring 2015. Could not even return for the fall. 

Dareth let me ponder how you and your fan girl ass of me saying shit to me like, " who is that guy". In admiration to become the most fucked up person who like literally stole my work as their own. Be proud that you literally struggled to get an education after everyone traitored you with all their fakeness and you cannot see your own level of lust and zeal? Fuck you-but you were only a rather latent 3rd choice meaning that a person really only wanted to truly bang you and nothing more. It is what it is. How dare you exist to be against me when you took so much oxygen from me. The level of fandom and the excitement me? When did that become hate? What are you the villain from the Incredibles? Now its so sad. Never are you going to have a chance and ultimately like I am okay with it-you stopped being hot like after 2015 really and so damn; you weren't even wife material.

It must of been so hard for you to get back to school with no dorm, no school life and no sorority friends and just work and the offset of school and bills and stuff that you don't even enjoy just looking back to those glory days and envisioning it now differently wishing that Jamie had not left. That bro had just stayed in an abusive place with bad people who had no ideas who he truly was. I may have hung out with you people but that was only for fun itself. Just to see who was in a place and doing what and where. There was no one even on my mental level. You were all stunted little bitches without a hope but maybe because you lanced off me someone so stupid gained an ounce of hope. Maybe it was me who gave you the inspiration to jump out of the school. Maybe you took mm culture and made it into something it never was supposed to ever be; about you. You broke my heart. How you could use something by reading a blog that was not even explained on the blog. Too much to cover in this post but man, did you not grow impatient and pushing what is mine to what is a boiling stew in hell! Certain times I wished to be with you thinking you were pretty and nice but then fall 2015 comes and I realize there are no graces on the earth. Latina, black, white, asian or fucking else-the people I encounter are all counterfeit. Maybe you saw your success as counterfeit. Maybe you realized that you had not the friends you started with and felt the pain. Maybe you realized that you fucked up but just double down instead of realizing that you fucked so badly everything up that you cannot even think of repairing anything from even your terrible logic. It sucks to be you. How in that moment I trusted that your were an ally just because you said some flipant words about a dude you just wanted to fuck. Teaching me lessons that the words to you that are said around you; don't mean anything when no one has the courage to actually say it. Just like the 2018 girl with her highheels; you are just the same person and the funny thing is that this person has to try so hard because they know they aren't were they want to be but want to run the show so to speak. Like damn-you may have been smart enough to get out into college and get a dorm but this girl too dumb to even get that experience and thus over compensates and think people above their paygrade interested in them. Like bruh, the only difference is that you are an evolved Pokemon level above them and really the girl is just a more stupid and evil version of you. Yes, even more fucked up than you if that can even be possible.

Ah, its so embarassing when you have women who obviously like you but go crazy and defile your name and your worth in public even when they are in a state so far away from where you even live! So embarassing like stop. If only a person were an abuser is that you could live so happily ever after because that is what you want and ultimately that is people whom you vye for. I think its a problem where people assume that men must take the first step but no; you are the one thinking about things too much and you for your lack of thought just fuck things up. It would have been easier for you to not fuck things up if you were truly honest but no-you don't want people to come up to you naturally but force you into something with vigor and force and really reward such behaviors that you are your own worst enemy. I am never going to change who I am just so some crazy who cannot keep it in the pants to get something they think I am going to give because men ask first. Maybe realize intsead of charming and attractive you come off as fucked up, immature and desperate especially when you contribute to the atmosphere that has harmed a person. Like you first wingding contribute to this newer wingding; by doing what you did in the past-you screw everything up so that a person is just tired, depressed and holding on. How dare you? And also just contribute to a system unyielding so they never get the girl before she is corrupted and just becomes a constantly daily problem. Like bruh-you may find your little happiness drinking drinks with whatever people dropped out of college aka sorority but you just led to and contribute to a violent calamity you helped grew and flung at a person.

Oh, yea-man out of everyone I blame you because you are the most common archetype character I see and the only one that must be able to connect so equally to all the little other archetypes. Their names don't matter and my name does not even matter. Its the men lead first people women who just excuse that men are in power that they can do whatever they want. Oh, yes, I have power but I rather not be toxic at all but you and your kind force me into this shit! Force me to do stuff I really don't want to do for the interest of my safety and just for damages you cost me.

You realize that MM culture was not for you but my new line of experimental works that you made it hard just to continue even creating comics at all. I would say you weren't the only thief and nor the worst one but you are a bitch. You steal my shit, subvert it for your own gain and give no fucks and probably forget who you even were in the past. Its unforgivable. Have no courage to speak to a person but have the courage to steal and defile their shit. Its just sick that you are a fucking coward and stupid too. You realize that people have lives and cannot just meet you at every qualm and issue you have with them being with you. My, my, my in some other time you could have been the perfect girlfriend if you just had asked and appreciated that it was mine and never yours. How you turned what was mine into yours is sick. Oh, that is why I cannot stand there being two or three or even four of you people always barging at my door or even now five and we are just counting the people who fit your archetype.  I think that when you put 100 +200 you fuckers get not 300 but 10,000 as that is how fast you people accelerate when you don't get your way. Oh, and let us just say that how people stole mm culture-there have to be 15 people and then it trickles down to the lowest generation and they literally have no clue what it is but I do and just contribute to bad usuage. You think you are cute sipping your fucking drinks with your white dumbass boyfriend who is only lucky he's not fucked up because he is white and not black? No, bruh, you fucked up so much and you want to think that your legacy is a good one?  A rat has better lineage to leave behind than the likes of you.  You encouraged these people with your drivel and bullshit and basically are like the mother of these mother fuckers.

You did not do anything to help as those people came me but I protected you until what? You just attacked a person and joined in. That day of Calamatia be very real. It will never go away. I still have injuries from that time and for lord knows how long I was not even able to sleep but two to three hours! That is all because of you and only you I blame! Its you who is ugly, its you who is now becoming fat with the envy of life of could bes and shouldbes and all this bullshit you would not be thinking about if you could even behave well for just even a second of a minute of a fucking day but you can never do that. Its wrong for you to behave. Its wrong for you to even be fucking normal.You cannot even realize that you were asking too much and were so naive to the situation you were in could have gone south far faster than it did. I wonder why you even stood a chance to think you had any authority on those grounds and thought that your shit was going to work out. Everyone disowned you who ironically were like more serious competitors in the "love department"like bruh, why think you are special when everyone of your little sorority friend group wanted a little Jamie action?! Huh, its only became you thought you understood a person you thought you were special but you never really sat down to speak with me. Only hellos here and there and just like trying to push yourself onto me like three or four times instead of actually speaking to a person. As good as a woman could smell the answer to such close proximity things when you never want to do the work to get that close is a no.