A look back.

 I look back on college and realize there are regrets that are nonsensical. Nonsensical in that they offer a brighter world than what there actually was. A person is all for optomism but people were in love with ego of their own hubris than they ever were at even the chance to even give a fair chance, be mature and non toxic and let's add even actually love you. For many they did not even know you to even understand who you are to even love you. These people were so full of theirselves that they literally thought that you alone were so dependent on them and they were fucked up thinking that you only had eyes for them. Did you even ask? Did you give a person a chance to be a person? No, you did not and ultimately you refused to.  There was no chance you could change someone so egoistical and literally depends on a cult to essentially boost their ego and give them freebies and passes for bad behavior. Like damn, do I need to say anymore? They were fucked up before you could even have a chance to even be with them to influence them to be otherwise. At least a person was spared from being in a toxic relationship/marriage really much.