God's Chosen People Complex.

Warning; Complex social matters and abuse of a kind is discussed as well I don't have a good mouse to correct mispelled words so; there are mispelled words.

 Yes folks, deep down my college experience was foiled especially in fall 2015 by white resentment and the need to validate their existence amongst people of color and in a society with many people of color and a growing number. So many people all they are about is the white fear agenda. Pushing everyone else who is not white out of even being considered a person. Selfishly holding onto anything to make theirselves the chosen people and spreading this poison ideology to gullible and less than measured sane people of color to even be worse captains of the "god's chosen people" complex. It is the myth that many people try to invalidate the great existence of people who don't need to hate other people by their skin color or make up stories or myths to make theirselves feel good. This is just so people can be comfortable while many people are brutally murdered and made entirely uncomfortable. You have to realize that if people aren't doing as you are doing to even behaving in the same worldly manner of acceptance as you; they don't belong anywhere near you but are a drag against society. They don't have to be white at all; all they have to be doing is being ignorant of the real world and the fact that everyone matters in life and just pushing exceptionalism for their own immoral actions in a gambit founded by white people.

I will recall that the same dean who seemed encouraging to me to stay in the lab most Fridays was just a person who would just turn out to be a republican loyalist and you know in the 2015 time period after that simply means he was a Trump supporter. Just would later tell me, " if you cannot work here and want to fuck around or whatever you can go fuck around and do whatever those people at the other college are doing". Typically that place was full of people of color and it graphic design program underfunded. Really much my friends, this guy would just forget how hardworking I was to stay behind class for hours to work on the programs and learn them as well as the wiacom tablets and just make up something incredibly convenient in their minds. Just forgetting you as a nobody and making utterly convenient ideas about you by race. I was the only black person in that class and damn; what he was saying was racist. Indeed from the very start folks; there could be said that the dude was just a racist and simply I only fit into certain ideas he was thinking then and would not think later just because a person was misled by him that the first class of his class was canceled. Seeming to make me look like a delinquent. The hispanic girl that came to the table to harass me was really much just to fall in toe with this handled imaginary but truly just because you aren't in some idiot's groupchat to receive a message that should have otherwise been done on other proper channels. Come to realize from this advent in winter 2018 that the people at the head of this program always pushed racist agendas onto people and really much inspired their students to have great biases. The fall 2017 classes at the flooded campus would be like this. Endless favoritism to a teacher who was white and just really much discriminatory and racist. Would allow one girl to get such graces in attendance you can infer was from her race.

Greatly the fall 2015 digital illustration class and the design communication class where just founded on the same principals of excuse to certain people or overtly flattery of them when truly it was undeserved and defeated the point of education. Of course many people did not feel like they were welcomed. There were only about three black people in the entire graphic design program over 3 years from fall 2015 to 2018 and there would only be two in general who would actually be in the program from 2016 to 2018 myself included. The other guy was just some clueless dude who clearly thought he was above all the hatred but equally himself objected to the fact there was even any favoritism on race or any poisonous group culture, group think and just toxic behavior which drove many people away. Why? The classroom rang like the order of fucking Trump. It was clear to many people that you could only succeed if you were liked and well you basically would have to teach yourself. For many this just defeated the purpose of education whatever race they were. They just did not want to be in such a toxic environment. I am to say that the first two classes whilst headed by a hispanic/french lady just in all carried the same racial favoritisms for white people and leaning into the worst ideas of their people aka very enormous racist things. Very much at the end of the day if you did all the assignments for all the different graphic design classes it was all up to whoever was over the class to grade you well or not and I am to say many people did not. Especially at the minority college which maybe the teacher was not racist but he just inspired intolerance for the truth to pedal his own version of graphic design which was outdated and unhelpful just so he could appear competent.  Its to say you cannot truly enjoy anything when everything is like this; its truly toxic.

People think they are entitled to rewards or benefits from being apart of the teacher's cliche. The girl from spring 2018 who thought she was going to get benefits for putting me in place, saying that the "teacher was angry at me for missing the 'first' class". It was so fucking stupid because at the end of the day who the fuck cares but a person just to trying to find purpose when there is none trying to take down another person and be steady at trying to do the same thing to other people if need people the whole fucking semester. Just gross and totally unnatural. To be on a sidebar some people just need to get so pyscharistic help.  There in spring 2017 nearest the end; this one girl who had been on a field trip that I was on in October 2015 just thought that after all her time viewing me that I was perfect to be her rebound when things with her boyfriend weren't working out. It could be assumed to her that I was apart of the fall 2015 cliche which included many of her friends especially another woman who at the end of that semester tried to basically put her behind over my genital area during a class picture. It was like then the girl was hovering herself right nearest to wear my jeans could nearly fell her behind. 

It was more like the spontaneous thing where you were in a certain spot first and this woman just jumped at the chance and whilst she pretended to be "friendly with her friend" made the honest effort to ever more inch towards me. I am to say that perhaps greatly this woman who was also called Anna than another Anna present at the time; later blabbed about her feat. As if it was some reward to encroach on a person's space. I did not like it at all. This person was married and had kids and often went off about it in class. It was just uncomfortable. When you realize later that greatly this other person only wants to get at that "heard" benefit-you just realize they only believe in such benefit  because of what someone else in their peer group got away with. I was not going to confront this woman about her behavior earlier as it would have just incurred the wrath of idiots and a person rather not make such enemies. Would it be hard to infer this just from the person that was not the Anna always smiling at you intently. Yet you realize that in spring 2018; this girl did not like you at all. But grimaces when she sees you as she realizes her clique is all but gone and the effect of whatever "benefit" she could have gotten from rebounding on you to her peer group was gone. Reducing you in her opinion to just a person who had possible a grudge against her friends and a possible upsurper in their own delusions to their long time boyfriend. 

This level of disrespect is paramount sexual assault and a bunch of women jerking off to the notion of how far they could take something without getting into trouble. Why a person would even like this person at all is because they would rather believe that this person was not bad or liking you to just try some shit with you because someone else did it and nothing happened to you but when you look how drastically their countenance changed over time and how their peers were gone; you realize that they were trash. Just trying to use you for some ill needed social benefit that made a person greatly uncomfortable. They were actually apart of the larger medias program but being that the racist dude was the dean of the program it makes sense that the trickle of hatred and bigotry did not stop at the graphic design program. Basically the program was so fucking toxic you had people just be hostile and even trying to infringe on people's physical boundaries for pure fucking sport. Let this be clear; I purposely in telling the fall 2016 advents only focused on the vital things that happened then but let me be perfectly clear that the true image of the program was way more disgusting.  I am to say that you would always for some reason be the target of the friends of the certain Anna as those girls gave me a negative stare in early fall 2016-I reveal its because Anna just went out of her way to violate my space and then brag about the effort so that these people formed their own opinions about me and why I said nothing. Seemingly I would say the two women looked at me angry it is because they thought that for some reason I was out to get them sexually but that is just something they made up in their heads like people who shame women who sleep around. Yet somewhat thinking I did not say anything because I was taking advantage of Anna putting her crotch over mine. I was not. A person actually kept moving as back as they could without drawing attention and yet the woman Anna would not quit moving backward to reach my crotch area. Greatly in spring 2017; Sharon which was like  Anna's best friend always looked at me as if she was guilty of something yet I believe that she was not there that day the picture was taken and so whatever was communicated was communicated later on between the friends. Its to be said in the similar time; the other girl who would make the effort to engage my attention would just look at me as if she could capitalize on what story had been spread by Anna.

I am to say this is a serious thing to consider how greatly the racist structure grants such people even the thought of taking sexual gratification from others without their consent or with the mission to abhor their rights and just their dignity as human beings and not social collateral.  Some people need to realize that jungle fever is not an alright thing when all you are going for is to generalize people by racist beliefs. I would not even get started on the advents before 2015 but truly; let this paint a picture to how terrible the experience actually was and how I waded in it just to be successful and to try to get the girls from prior aka fall 2013 to spring 2014 time period.