Hatred in its black form.

 One of the most disturbing means of hatred is when a person pretends to even like you but really much takes things too far. They take things too far in the guise of self vanity and self importance especially in a college setting. What self importance do they aspire? Some type of twisted vanity as the equation of "whiteness" as power-really what they assume makes a person white or that they can become "white passing" when truly no one would ever being white would recognize them as the such. I mean so many people think they have pulled the wool over people's eyes but eh-you do stupid erm, you do you. Yet for all their fake politeness and posturing that they recognize people as people; usually other people of color-they freaking cannot realize that their fakeness and wickedness does not gain them anything and if not makes them look like fools to people who realize the reality of a world with different types of people who are all equal least they don't try to terrorize people into their beliefs and values. I am to say that ultimately some people are so closeted to what success in college means that they make up dumbshit that makes no sense and project their fears and insecurities onto people who don't deserve these annoyances.

I am to say imagine a person speaking to you and they later decide for theirselves without asking you that you are sexually into them. Then upon this absurdity ponder what? That you would do some harm to them as in actually get them pregnant and then when they see you frown and say something negative about you. Like, " eww". Like, "disgusting". Like ", creepy". O, I am to say its rude foremost to even assume a person is sexually interested in you and then act as if they are to a degree you make them a villain in your own self perceived story. Effectively becoming incel like and the aggressive terrorist type all the same. Its also backstabbing and dare I say is violating to assume such things when people indeed could not even like you in that manner. Even if they did-sure enough being the one who is somehow the enemy when both have that level of affection is no way to start any relationship or any positive sexual relationship. Who is the real trash when they act on things they assume from being antisocial, socially inept and just in their own heads to cause an innocent person harm just some they can be the hero of their own make believe. Which to be said they would not be any hero and they would not even be a successful individual at their goals either which is important to people's hero complexes. These people whilst assuming everything about others and simply acting as if they are these totally fuckable individuals everyone wants; literally have nothing going for them but living in delusions and propping up hate campaigns on the face of what others have done. That is some people will just pick up things they see Republicans do especially when it will never benefit them; a low class to middle class person of color!

Greatly I have to say many times things happen upon me and a person has no say in these things. What? Is a person supposed to find a corner of the school and somehow get the person who has these absurd ideas into that corner and beat the living shit out of them for taking advantage of their ability to even conversate or try to even get to know them? No! That would be playing by their trashy unmannered way of being! But to be said in real life you just cannot go around dissing people who otherwise would be your ally. In this world you need allies especially people who share the similar culture to you and believe it or not it would not be white people if you were a person of color. Only if they were knowledgeable of different cultures but really much the troubling trend that is seen in colleges is mainly so many people of color refusing the real chance to learn the skill of networking. Rather so many pretentious women and other people that can be considered men despite being total bitches; really rather piss people off and make enemies than realize they need allies. That is the grand problem of colleges; they reinforce things that just make people of color fail.

I am to say greatly there was this person called Ambur in fall 2018 who literally was a sack of flaming shit. They honestly did not know how college worked and ultimately despite wanting to be a teacher could not show up to class if not was very disrespectful to your accolades and achievements. Really not understanding the whole hierarchy of people " with higher educational experience than them". Only seeking to disrespect people who had higher skills than them just because they wanted to be the only one ontop of it all because of their dream. Their dream I will say was nothing special-it frankly was just run of the mill. You don't know how many teachers in becoming there actually are in colleges but there are many. So many that other people actually go to four year colleges and complete certificates to start teaching early. So much that this person was actually so behind any peers especially in regards to her whole ethics of coming to class on time or at all. I think that if your dream truly was to be a teacher-you would stay the fuck in class and not go out into the campus to just hangout with people who literally harm your intellectual growth and continued goals. I think that really much her dream was nothing unconventional in the educational environment and she could have gotten tons of help with it but just did not give a fuck. Its not as if this girl was trying to make comics. No, they were just trying to reinvent the wheel and be bitter at people who actually had a track record of completing classes and attending them. I mean there was no reason for that person to not attend; everyone there was friendly to her and no one was trying to use them as a scapegoat for their own issues. I mean a person in spring 2017 had to skip classes because people were too unbearable to actually be there as you felt it was a danger to you.

Whilst a person held back in the past about this individual; I am to say they were a total fucking idiot. To think so highly of theirselves when they did the bare minimal and just because people thought they were good enough to speak to in the first place they let it all go to their heads. Thinking that people even thought they were sexual attractive. The great thing is that if a person was actually chasing after sex then it would not be with them. Only a person was trying to see if truly they were compatible to even date and if they were "beautiful inside". They weren't but the run of the mill ugly that people just don't know just makes them look both ugly and stupid. If a person wasted their time even responding to the "ew" they would utter to me three times as they passed a bench I was prior sitting and never waiting for them-they would just being giving away time and peace to some ugly wombat wannabe mother fucker. They would just being giving this person the excuse to "find a corner to beat you in". If that sounds bad of me to write of them as a person of color and them being a person of color even equating them to a gangster-its not when truly that is what type of person they are. They just overtly assume shit that is not real and really are delusional to reality itself that a person can feel sorry for them a bit at the start but then just realize they are just a lost cause that you just need to wash your hands of. I am to say a person does not need to defend their image to people who are basically creeps.

I think of this to say that generally people are very ignorant to the fact that women can be abusive to men and many of the times are. If the woman was a man and acting in this manner of thinking people wanted to have sex with them and acting in such a way as if they were denied this pleasure; surely many people would say there were a creep. But greatly this is just toxic behavior that is allowed to exist upon usually men especially those are black as if "they are deserving of it". As if they were simply, " asking for it" by being black people at all. When only people have these very racist idealisms going on about them.

Truly enough I don't think its fair for colleges to promote diversity but yet don't touch on the real cultural complexities as this and how its just unjust and unproductive. Much enough a person never can have a real say to this person who just wants to believe shit. They cannot tell them  that they aren't sexually interested in them or that they are uncomfortable with them insinuating these ideas. They literally cannot do anything unless they want it to eat into their time and cause greater drama. My mates, I am to say that its greater unfair that the likeness of anyone and their image can be used for any self perceived gambits by another. I am just to say that some people cannot be civil and social and just maybe enough if people were able to sue people for being so uncultured and so disgusting; maybe they would turn their behaviors around.