Trickery.

 Now, in the great things that are; there are people who choose to do wrong in this world and its a conscious choice they live to regret and regret. Some people just aren't meant for any greater things or anything at all but to live in the moral flith their family has lived for generations. Some acts are just of those who are cowards. Yes, cowards who have no ambition to even be true to theirselves. Let me tell you about some people. There was a girl, okay, a girl indeed who was so confident in her boyfriend but really was just gay the whole time and despite trying the new dudes after this would be forever dude; she eventually had to be honest with herself. There is to be said that people will only be true to who they are when absolutely forced to when they are cowards. They could go around and say that they are straight but that is only to appease a toxic majority and stiffle theirselves. I think I will level some greater tact to a situation and express how greatly the women whom ultimately have been after me are victims in part but then to a great degree people who have decided what type of life they will live. A life of cowardice and being in a frenzy like an animal to even exist.

There is a mindset of a hellscape in these people. They were already tortured people as teens and were further subjected to even more torture to become people who aren't that great.  They had a role in this but not to the degree schools and adults and religions do. Its funny that people think its okay that this should be normal. The suffering and then the utilization of  weak will people who are vulnerable. So vulnerable and filled with malice that nothing could help them but surely the radicialization and normality of harm gives them great advances to take out upon the world for existing its productive features. Targeting everything they can to fuck everything and everyone over in their power. This is all their gambit and all their plan and its a testament to how shitty of people they actually are.

These people would pretend anything if it kept them from facing the reality of working for anything to actualize anything they truly actually want or need. Pure idiots who drink a coolaid so sweet; they can only find instant gratification in anything and everything else and just subscribe to more sensationalism and radicalism refusing to do what normal people do to achieve their needs. They have to blame others and grift so hard on a system and never realize they are in the wrong. That ultimately following this nonsense hurts them so bad it prevents them much and many times from finding any peace and learning how to even better theirselves. There were several girls who were actually gay dating dudes only so they could be in with the in crowd and a "regime of sorts" and this is to say that people knew what they were subscribing to and allowing theirselves to do. They were and are not innocent people. I am just clarifying that because the younger me's posts would have you believe that. Yet you can still be fucked up and still be a victim. I am to say that no place should be encouraging people to get in with what is unnecessary and damaging social terrorism.

These people for some reason felt entitled to the loving idea that a person could be their future husband but these people had no could intentions. In the previous post of 5D itself laid out what could be called the Hickman Cause akin where people seemingly see a whole life with a person and realize it; then get sick of it as if they were reborn to live the same life again having great anger at people for even existing. I call it the Hickman cause because it comes from the fall 2019 comic reboot of the X-Men's first serial where Moira in her 2nd life experiences this. But alas, this is all science fiction-its not reality at all. These people were just spurred on by a nutbag who has no concept of what love really is and just encourages these people to believe in this socially absurd bullshit. I mean, logically it could exist that there are alternate worlds but in the greatness of these people; its just an excuse to attack an innocent person because these people are afraid of people actually being people or being out of their control. Its ironic because they have people scared shitless to even be near them when they expose their true nature because they are out of control. These people are so out of control they would kill you if they could because of this dreamed up nonsense because they are too afraid to follow actual social dynamics. They are nutbags led by a nutbag who has preyed on their mental weakness and instead of being a true mentor and not a groomer; they have led them astray. Instead of helping them not believe conspiracy bullshit and things that ultimately are the corrupter of all things good in discovery and study( which strangely is the purpose of a college in the first place-to discover and study and not just look to corrupt things and create violence); they choose to not give them access to proper mental help and ultimately refused real world solutions to small problems such as communicating with other students their feelings. They rather have students being racist, hate each other and just hold and withold everything and blame people for simply existing instead of people actually coming together for any social good or anything that is constructive in society. What they do is simply aspire a class divide between people from certain regions and usually support those who come from these rich white affulent regions were few black people even exist and conspire to have children basically jury and execute other children. That is college. 

Openly, I think upon recently the case were four students were killed in their sleep. Of course, it could be said nothing that vicious may have occurred but things up to that level of degree would occur with the nonsense a nutbag would support. Its to be said that colleges are given too much credence as the places of study and advancement when they cannot even listen nor focus to even study anything but cherry pick and corrupt everything. They do this because this is how they behave with real people. They refuse to understand a person and all else things of that nature. They behave like frenzied animals  basically making people mints and meats. Some people are those they savory in their mouths like mints and are favorable to their cowardice. I relate these people to those who fit into their ideals of what they want to pretend to be instead of what they are.  These gay women wanted someone who was what they thought anyone would want when straight and if anything else; these dudes wanted nothing to be rid of these archetypes but be free to be their own individuals. I would say that men and women want nothing more than to be respected whether they are gay or not. My mates; realize and realize this-that means there are people who they view as idealist trash and don't respresent people whom they would ever respect. This is to show their ugliness to fit in when they are just doing wrong by theirselves and others pretending something is good when its not. They are hurting the dude. They are hurting theirselves. There is no real love but hatred. For some people I should I realize that I was the idealised person to be hanged up on and that if you were really to play in the shit going on it would be so easy to get one of these people to be your girlfriend but yet a person realizes that would not be love at all but hate and using people who belong elsewhere. Some people thought of you nothing more than that and hated you for it whether it was aiming to be with you or purely loathing you for the potential of what in their minds you would be doing! Though its all in their heads because the real you  is not even like that.

In short; the realness of everyone is rejected just so some nut can say their ideas are proven right when they basically have people acting in social deviance of literally attempting to character assassinate people and think its okay and if not engage in acts of violence and/or hostility towards them. There be a time where a person would try to ignore the reality of things but then a person was forced to realize it all and that they should be far and far away from a place than that close to it. I am saying that people were open to me only to be what is an abuser to them in this fake superficial role of respect mentioned before but when a person refused to do that and they were just so kempt to continue endoctrination thinking that shit was okay; a person became an enemy. The rising danger became too much to ignore such that a person was literally forced to retreat from a place.

I would like to mention that in any place of authority from the RA in the housing to the school adminstration and even the student government; few if any black people were ever present and ultimately black people were cast aside like wheat. The rising hostility against me was something I could not control and really was driven by a higher power to which has no reason but to be savage and hateful because I refused to do a disservice to people. I ensured that I treated people well. Never did I actually harm anyone whilst at that college; I was very considerate of people and their ideals even forsaking my own boundaries to appease such people. I should have never made a romantic promise to ever come back because these people don't ever  deserve anything but a mountain of coal. I try to seemingly remove gems from a toxic pressured situation but these people were fake diamonds and they rose with the violence to give excuse to their terrible behavior. So easily influenced these people even are to just go with anything when they are cowards. They never knew anything about me. That is a fact. No one knew anything about me but just situated in terror because they felt they could get away with it and that is not real love. So when I say I don't care if a person was able to find some truth in their identity and that they are gay and whatever; I really don't give two fucks because these people are cowards and even if they resolved to even find this identity-its because its okay to be the such in this society and era of current. If not for the sacrifices of real courage warriors and people who actually would never hide their true selves regardless of the era; fucking shit-would being gay even be okay. They are followers and would never do anything if someone else had never done it or if their necks truly were on the line. They only ever adapted to being their true selves a small bit because everything before did not work out. Every idealised future with each previous dude did not work out ergo Hickman cause seemingly and ironically has casted a lasting shadow on their lives. These people become some frothy at the mouth at any suggestion of a lasting future and only think the worst from the other person which ironically is projection from them. They are the only ones doing the worst! Especially when their ideal is so self absorbed and non factual that its just an excuse to write a person off as a villain when they aren't.

School should of been a place where people could have learned to be better and if people had the ability to see a whole life and not make it so onesided to be an argument to upright degrade the humanity of another; then that would truly have been good for a study or something-you know? But no, we cannot do anything constructive but be destructive fucking idiots believeing in bullshit that is not true or even real. My great thing is that ideally that alternative dimensions could exist where things worked out with each respective woman but really these people want nothing to ever be open to anything but what allows them to do evil and degrade other human beings. Its ultimately to say that a place is just a captialist foreground with tons of corruption throughout its ordeal and only by its rather lazy and unforgiving programs does it even merit an excuse to exist even to society.

I will have you know something; everything of a place is superficial and a mirage itself of what could be and that is what made a place so dangerous. Because cowards knew of this and took advantage of it and they would play into the mentality of these logical alternative worlds but still hold degradation of others as a core value. No responsibility to their own actions but blaming it on other people and individuals to which they never reason anything of what they did wrong. They are cowards who have nothing to give and surely never learned anything but  grift from a place of illusions, backstabbing and trickery.