Just fuck off.

 Brave and bold, is what those people of a certain college definitely aren't. Pure fucking adultered losers and yes, some of these people may be my facebook friends but that is a remnant from when they could even be considered human. These people so lost that you could not even recover a human from the debackle is them. Yes, debackle with a "k" because they pretend to be such kindred spirits its all a debacle on itself. 

When in need these fucking people just withold the water and make you choke on dirt just so they can be comfortable they are doing the right thing. Often enough they view theirselves as the racially pure and those individuals who are higher than artists. It is laughable if not absurd a person views theirselves higher and kinder when they are the exact opposite. Low and mean trolls who ruin every fucking thing my mates. They even ruin their own chances at happiness looking for the "ideal" white person to remove their people of color identity. These people suffer so greatly from what I can say is, " the body is willing but the mind callous, retarded, racist and evil". They only want sex and nothing more and really what type of love is that even? Tell me?! One that honors the very disgusting conditions of slavery and what happened pretend man and women of different race. Like man oh man; you literally think white women were innocent in slavery times not robbing people of their choice? No, they were just doing the same. These women just seek to honor those ideals. The reverence to a white dude is all there but yet must go to other sources for "sexual needs". People who ultimately are unwilling to assist them because literally who wants to be apart of this legacy.

On this youtube content channel called Julibee is a woman who basically wanted such an unrealistic idealism of a human being that ultimately they were living in fiction to a degree they really actually hate humans. There is to be said these people actually hate humans a great deal and a whole fucking lot. Everyone has to be white and of these certain qualities that they basically end up alone because no one in the real world exists like that. These fools chasten theirselves gods among men with mediocre versions of their ideals who only serve these ideals because they are white, lol. Even and eventually this is not enough for them and so they begin to cheat and ultimately never end up doing anything at all that reaches these imaginary ideals.  Just going beserk realizing their ideals aren't real at all. These people are basically to be said parasites on the actually anything you yourself could be getting in your life. Whilst these people marry offbrand versions of their racist hellish dreams; you are left with no one.

I remember that when I was trying to write Technogothica; I was basically saying that I was quitting on a people from a certain place and giving up on my promise to these individuals who of course are just fictional. The biggest idiot called Mariam even wrote me online in  early 2018 to insult me that the human courtship perception was all in my head and yet the bitch had the gal to use this imaginary to pretend as if she was the one or some sort of main character who ought to be important to me or having some great authority to me. Some of these people don't know how deep over head and heels they are but homegirl out of all the girls basically is the only one to write back because we had such a deep connection. The weird and bipolar talks in the elevator mostly started by the girl and then more so the constant hellos. Like bruh, you doing this shit to yourself and then when its not cool want to distance yourself from me. Its so disgusting. Like clearly people want to pretend as if they are "Jamie's one in the bucket of all the fish in the sea" when they clearly aren't.

I don't know who to tell this but everything ain't black and white and you know I realize I never did anything wrong. In fact its people acting as if they knew shit about me who were doing the wrong. You see-none of these people ever knew anything but only based on race and appearance and I would always hear their praise behind my back but bruh; that does not mean they respect you as a person. They never made the effort to say anything. I mean; a person is not going to tell them to stop when they are singing thine praises but to a great degree all this attention was fake.  Allison and Lauren would always appear behind me when I would be feeling the worst speaking of such praises and ultimately; to be said I felt it was unearned. They knew nothing about me and really weren't going to assist me in my efforts if not drag me into stuff I did not want to be doing. I am to tell this was a near daily thing where they were singing thine praises but you know would they really feel that way if they got to know a person. The answer in time from fall 2013 is fuck no. Hell no and ultimately why a person even feels bad in the first place is because they are doing things no person in this place even does; dream a thing of comics and try to make a process behind it. To ire and blast- people shall know that it is never easy to make anything from the ground up and you cannot consult anyone to do this. I mean the task that was at hand was not easy but it had to be done. 

These people were at great odds with me. For one are such sheltered people they really know nothing about black people but the fact of sports, music and this toxic form of academia they are behind. Like man oh man; you actually think I dreamt of either Allison or Lauren? No, what I really wrote in the past on this site of certain people was much like how a rockstar writes to an adoring fan. Nah, I really got to go on a self journey than hang out with you pissants whilst you barely do anything but follow the most ugly self hating racist in a region my mates. Like come on man; I have been nice for ten years but now people are going to get laid out "extreme edition". I am to tell you these people were childish and still are. They want to pretend they are so grown when they literally are still so underdeveloped. So stupid and so wasteful of their potential thinking that you can come at me with false devotion and basically tell me " to go fuck myself". The funny thing is that for all their interest and dumbass comments really; not a help to me at all in my journey to making comics.

Like the last time I even posted a note about comic creation was in 2022 which was two years ago and that was when I am to say I had it with these people. " Stop", these retards could never know what it means to do or to stop. Yearning inside me was something of pain and just a war mindset of how I was going to reverse everything of these peons and make them normal again but bro, when they hit me with that "calamatia" in fall 2016-I knew they had made their choice and commitment to misinformation and hate. Like for one what the fuck do these people even know about me? Nothing. The same as the assholes for highschool and whilst these nervous freaks pride theirselves on being better; they are just the same kind of dumb privileged animal. Here I thought I was done with the hiding away from fighting the belligerent racists of highschool ap classes and but no; people cannot be done with the whole "academic nihilism". Why do I be a comic aspiring creator? To stories for cheap. Not to please parents and get money by ultimately just cheating all the time. These is no way to even fucking cheat in the bottom to top create comics yourself thing and with great convenience I might add. No, if anyone's work is in your work then you fucking fail and here is what I haven't actually done; fucking fail. These assholes are the failures. Good for you and your dumbass engineering fuck shit degree. The whole time you treated people like shit and just stuck in a place and time everyone worth anything has moved on. Burn that in your mind. You wasted a college experience just being a dick who cheats and ultimately ignores people and just pushes them aside as an inconvenience. Like really mate. Your favoritism shows that you absolutely like being bashed behind your back.

Katherine, that is a person to acknowledge in people bashing behind the back and basically doing the equivalence of making you out to be a younger kid when you are one year older than them or the same fucking age really. Such favoritism for all the white people when all the white people who are dudes in friend group just huddle around after she leaves to overtly sexualize and imagine her being railed by two dudes who she studies with at once. Wow. Such the ability to allow them to speak as people and not infantilize them especially when they are basically arching to commit a very bad crime against the individual. Do tell me? What has the black person done in this situation if not the black people in this situation done? Just stay silent or try to change the subject and if that don't work just move away from being with the group. Alas, the need to support the white superiority is what is the absence of any real respect to a Katherine as long as they were white be forgiven but just exist and you got to make them "kind" to associate with them. Yes, maybe some idiots should look up the phrase, "make them kind" in terms of slavery. Home girl, Katherine literally not know who is her ally and really cannot even help theirselves when white people is right people especially when they aren't and especially when they want to force her into something.

Ashley with the D as the last name just be one of those black people who never have an actual black upbringing and ultimately fail to even realize the hardships of a person who is black in a place that is not filled with people who like black people even if being black theirselves. Like everyone got to dog on the black person that really it is an overt compensation that almost so many white people in the place are freed of but a person is already conditioned to fear white people and so; there are no allies. If not for the small black people to trust then who? Here is the answer; no one and especially not Ashley with the D throwing you under the bus and at the first instance of "your trick of importance" ditches you and scowls at any future reference as if it was a mistake to like the Jamie but they convinced theirselves otherwise like the first time dissing was their first opinion. Like bruh, never did a person actually approach for race alone but just because they were cute. They aged terribly and so really; all that crush feel just goes out the door especially by the time you realize they and their friends which includes Allison and Lauren are all together doing the same fucking thing.

Alas, there is another Ashley but with a H, the white girl from the USA who you assume if you cannot trust anyone else in the fucking place then you can trust Ashley the Houston Way, home dawg, triple g with the fucking flare. But no, you just become a 3rd wheel to her and dude you are kinda forced to befriend or you lose the friends. Like man, if a person had not learned from highschool not to even entertain this shit then they learn here. Lesson learned man, triple dawg yea- and from Ashley you get Nadia who for the essence smells like an old lady in peach perfume always speaking bad about Ashley's dude who now it does not matter and she is just remembered as a mean spirited woman who was always bad mouthing everyone behind their backs.

Dying of thirst in this desert you realize that ultimately if the worst is true about these people then you truly are stuck with a certain group of people or risk the impending doom of catfights where people get hurt. Trying to edge for that escape from what is now apparently and apparent trap. You get the Kassandra, the Favi bean, the Angie and the Jackie who not fulfill any thirst of a true companion but add heat. Add heat how? Oh, just realize this. Angie, be insane and throwing the bread at you in the first time you meet them to which you later find that they are the friend of Jackie who you were interested in but really aren't if Angie is going to be tagging around and the two are unseperatable. They go to the lengths in the world that is the world to be doing the weird and just getting away with some members of their group being fucking drunk. Literally hanging out with them would get you kicked out of the dorm if things went horribly wrong. Kassandra be peeping at your spotify and everything you listen to and basically wants to be with you but says nothing and gives up and be's with the white dude called Sage who is like the whole thing and basket such a person of low confidence could want. Find their union cute and cuddly, how about fuck them both with whatever kind act you try to do by saving the Kassandra's fucking boots from being tossed-she just looks angry at you and really does not say anything at all but its all good because she got her boots. Folding her fucking cookies to mirror you when you would eat together when no one else did it so why she do it? Favi bean being the person trying to get at you in the "rawr" sense and basically expected you to lay easy with a person who is easy mate. So easy you got to rub healing potion on the fucking condom for it to not burn! Burn! Favi being the roomate Kassandra hates for constant sex in the dorm room but damn bro-neither one of you is it when some other dude is always more important that the Jamie. Like for all the mimicry of Kassandra, like dawg-why you ain't hit anyone up? You scared? Of fucking black people?  To be said that Jackie would try to fling the bean at me but like hmm; maybe its too late when you just don't understand people and think everything is a fucking game and people are more important. Never getting to understand a person truly at all and really much just being there to be there seeing me as nothing more than something for sex which to be honest just made me sad because a people could have been so much more.

Then could be things go soggy when you got this well cleaned Gabby trying to beckon onto you and guess what even in this elitism shithole; some community college bagrot has more prominence that someone who does not need their gf to be there. Like homegirl is basically dude's mother and ally and everything and yet wants to cross the line. Such a betrayal is not what a person could even be apart of. Acting as if she was going to desperately split from dude to achieve the elitism of this place but man; white can do anything and still be right. Is the great illustration of how a person cannot but be a secondary person who is no person but home dude call literally not even go to school and be accepted for all he is doing and that is a fucking joke itself when the person in question points elitism at everyone and even speaks about you within earshot. Lol. My friends; we got ourselves a deceiver of two parties. Somehow woman fits well with folks of this elite academic nihilism place where art is bad and all that dumb fucking shit and yet is supportive to a dude who will never go to the college at all and never fits into the whole academic engineering student who cheats and believes there is no  other way. Oh, cater everything to him and his experience when he is just trying to do something which everyone in the dorm has already done by doing good in highschool whilst the dude fucked around. Homeboy is not doing anything special and actually does not even belong in the place based on how people want to behaving and acting towards people who aren't apart of their elite academic nihilism where art and free will are passe. Man, the sweet voice of a siren it would be that you ultimately have to refuse for which some people would choose to do wrong; a person would rather not put the dude down twice as it actually was. Twice-because homegirl was going to ditch him and ultimately would be ditched in the sense of no continued "academic" connections for community college. Home dude ought to realize it was no victory I did that and ultimately really did it for myself and morals. But shows how my character was always marred by this place being black and a white underachiever was destined to be great and him being in community college was a setback. Yes, that is what it was. Just imagine thinking thirst be quenched by Tequila and you feel the heat and then the flame and nothing good but being drunken off of it. A person fled this folly.

Sarah A, Sarah B, Veronica, Sarah the olde (an older RA), Leigh and the two Jennys-what do all these people have in common. Being insufferable to the point of exhaustion. Like thinking they are the main character and their acts of aggression will not be registered as the such as if people aren't people but lesser beings incapable of the thought. Sarah A, the asian sorority leader of sorts and social leader of the certain south hall on the fourth floor at least to a point she pissed everyone off; be a trash that is a flower that grows in the back of an alley and smiles its pink demeanor aka tries so hard to be the "it" girl when they are "douche girl". No, no one in that body of all the different seeming conflicting personalities of a varying character like an Ai generation; could be anyone to be with. Like I am not going to tell you the whole story again but she is listed just recently on this site, Mk MZODERN but not under bitch which she should be.  Sarah B, could be the worst and most crazy person on this whole thing and well it has to do something with being an 8th twin. It would seem the brain never developed empathy or the ability to learn when to cease. Never knows when to stop being what? In the fall 2013 era such a liar and kiss ass to some bizarre ideas linking down to the administration of a place and people thinking that they are cute.  Wow; I never knew trying to be Nazis in real life affixed to some faulty loyalty in an university was a good thing. Its not and never will be. Sarah B and Veronica have that thing in common. Being insufferable to the breaking point you wonder that some people who basically are latinas are just lost to the world and really won't ever win believing theirselves to be secondary. Like if someone was to make a powerrangers season-they would be the Big Bad's two minions. Sarah the olde and Leigh are just that but of the previous powerrangers season before that one and then you got one that only pretends to be nice to you infantilizing you called Sarah the olde. Basically any other black person is treated so piss poorly that you could never ally with them. You got Leigh who is just bipolar to the extent they ain't sane not one bit just like Sarah A. Alas, the two Jennys are apart of Sarah's group and openly hate you when its clear their bipolar behavior is only linked to when they can fight the urge to " play the victim at the hands of a black person who has done nothing wrong but exist". None of these people could ever understand you but want to try to think they can really just by your physical appearance and made up shit they made up in their heads.

Now, do you think any of these people were even people to date? No, the answer is fucking no. None of them gave a fuck about a person at all and openly wow; you just are on such low terms with them but they want to pretend you are of this better quality because they don't want to be labeled as racist or problematic or bad people but it happens anyways because they are all the prior. None of these people could be compassionate or understanding to my happenings or my simple needs which goes just to need a friend-only one friend that understands and helps a person do and they give that energy towards them.  I am saying that these people wasted alot. They never considered they were jumping the gun! That a person wanted things to work out naturally if it was going to be romantic but all they wanted was sensationalism and violence just so they could feel important. They invented me as a celebrity, a hater, a little boy and anything but what I truly am; a creative. Never considering there were other women who a person could have been dating or even considering. Like bruh, you realize that only these people in the dorm were problematic to the degree of which they choose to be. They waste their god given talents on basic terrorism and character assassination. Use whatever wills to insult me. Did their best faith to mock me as people have always done onto black people. No process of creativity helped by them. No bad day assuaged by them. Nothing done but them leer and sneer in a fake snotty way. They must think its polite. Cowards till the fucking end and cannot admit that (1) they like me (2) suck so bad at admitting it (3) too much reverence to white exceptionalism to even have the anything to really speak to a person as a person to understand them as a person (4) are crazy and think they are better than every other human due to their criminal academic nihilism.