Clearly in the mind.

 Clearly, no one understands me at all. The thing is that people are so stupid and they think they are smart that you must dumb down a dude who just happens to be black. People so desperate to try to steal stuff that they do not own. That they do not own me and nor my character. I argue that highly; its time to quit everything of the status quo and embark on something new and these Abrahamic religions must be left behind. They are outdated and really much the people of these faiths are not good individuals. Too many evil people found in their number for these faiths to be worth it. You ironically have people believing in shit that is not real contrasting to people who very much and very really exist. I am going to say there is no Guadalupe as in a Saint. Its all bullshit and a lie made into an image. The hijab and all those garments do not grant any meaning but clothing to help closeminded people live their fucking life and have control over women.  Ah, Jesus would never allow and want people who practice the mindset of  slavery to succeed just because they play sports. For you to win with this holy wins means that others have to be holy damned for you to be so special. Everyone wants to be special when they aren't and its highly annoying. Social media only makes this worse. "Make Heaven more plentiful". Like man, the only way your bitchass kind does that is drinking and driving, for real.  People think they understand a man just because they black and that is just that but no. I am tired of these pretentious "god's chosen people" and like many things Abrahamic religions need to be cease being.

I went to see Jonah and the Whale as a VegieTales story in 2002. It was such fun my friends. We get to learn how man survived a fucking whale eating him but damn dawg, you got to realize in reality if you are munched by a whale-chances are you are dead. Its just a story but does not take away from its meaning of faith.  The importance of what I trying to communicate is that faith is the everything to many people but somehow when you go out into the world in 2013; it really does not matter your faith as long as your have a dick that can fuck some horny pieces of shit. Have faith in me? These people have nothing but disgust-rapey slavery disgust of white owner to african slave type of disgust and want to pretend they treat people as equals.  I remember how conflicted I was in that same year but earlier on how slavery existed and how it basically marxed everything about the purpose of christianity. How it is just a means to say that black people are still nothing but animals without white people giving them structure and society. How did they do that? Oh, bring the Africans over and it just being them having the worst sex ever with men and women and let me say children bruh. Like fucking real; you think that is giving structure? That god wanted that to happen? That God willed it to happened? The real answer to this question is that no. Its stupid to think that God favors one people and says fuck you to another group of people. It is a people problem and not the question of God but how the people use God as a means to pretend they are God and to establish an order that goddamn fucks people over for 1/2 years just because of their skin.

I remember walking in the park yesterday, going the same way as this asian woman and really much one of those stupid people who ultimately think that  hmm, black people are the menace to society when Asians suffer so much violence more than likely-should realize how harmful it is to try to play this fake faith game that black people are the worst and white dudes are the best to be hoped for to come across in the park. Home girl looked at me and then hurried up.  I could not change my path because you can only go certain paths at a certain period of time in the park or you become hog food. So basically I continue to take the same path I always take and continue my way as the woman is going the same place but in a different path and basically when she sees me crossing to go to the spot that circles around-she decided to turn around and was quickly gone. I am to say that certain people are a menace to their own selves and at worst a terror to others. Yes, folks-it so happens in that small park that you will often be following a person who is going the same path and yet only this idiot tried to make such a fanfare about it. So brainwashed to think anyone cares about their no ass self with clothes that fit poorly like what? Some people have no faith in character but tons of faith in misinformation.

That is what many people suffer from in addition to "main character syndrome" and think everyone has to be stupid along with them and that everyone has to cater to their agendas especially when its harmful to the health of a woman and a non viable pregnancy. The ability to take and truly corrupt women is but a ploy to destroy their very autonomy to choice. When you believe one group of people regardless if its white, black, asian or hispanic is so out against you; you are truly not free to really experience choice but to live in a mindset of fear.

Truly, going back to 2002 when the truth of slavery was revealed and you as a kid never knew and wished it never was because you realized then that life was going to be very hard and that certainly its untrue that God would actually just favor white people over black individuals; you begin to realize an identity of freedom to which white children have to work to even get out of. To realize that christianity is not culpable. That it is folly. It is against your existence especially when white people press that it is necessary that black people be slaves then in the great past and even then in modernity of 2002 and still do. That black people are 2nd class individuals who always need this gospel of faith pushed at them to be redeemed. Its to be said that no smart black person would stay under christianity. Its like the mystery of life reached a new level then and  church became a prison. A place of constant reform for the sin of being black. You have to realize that tons of black people never were christians but more like Muslims at the time slavery even became a fucking thing to which of the African sort. This means that tons of africans must have gone to hell if not saved by this dandy pappy white christianity bullshit but that itself is nonsense when you realize slave holders were rapists, murderers, drug dealers selling opium in part and just people who all by the logic of Christianity are in hell. Like man, bruh, you think it was good reveal. No, you find the reveal of all the little white kids and all the dumb fuck white looking hispanics suddenly thinking they were better. Home woman did not even do it justice. You could feel as if suddenly inferior realizing that there are reasons to why black kids act up and its because they have so little. How people have been deprived of humanity.

Duh, its to be said that recently I have been thinking back to that time and realizing that if one day I have any child regardless of their mother's race; this will have to be a talk and basically what am I going to do? Raise them christian so that there is always this inferiority? This dumb hierarchy where black people are just endoctrinating theirselves and its made worse when prison exists to keep so many black people working for free because they had no one who cared for them, no good guidance, and no education so they resorted to crime! Its basically still slavery. Because people are indoctrinated by these white idealisms to hate people who aren't white. The same as the woman in the fucking park I saw yesterday Sunday. Black people are no different from that Asian woman wishing hate upon me for my appearance. These churches allow many times for hatred against islam, Hinduism, buddism and so many other religions and just hatred against all these people. Oh, and if you are gay just fuck you. Literally my home dawg, and really much these places are so behind the times and out of touch with reality. You literally think that what? That which and that your belief in God and tithing will fix the world. It is bullshit. None of that money goes to education, it does not go to any good cause but so some bitch who cheats on his wife can live in a gated community to say he is the exceptional black person. Its funny, because if you gave a fuck about your children and gave a fuck about educating them on how to life a life and gave money to the proper places aka school for 20 years of basic tithing; you could pay for their college education. Instead you send them to prison or them to death and pastor on high gets to be sent to the gates of prosperity because you believe the fucking lie. Its disgusting this imagery of black people always being of the church and these stupid ass stereotypes profounded in fucking movies.

It is these people who pretend as if it is a crime to not be such an uppity piece of fucking shit that hold black people back. Pray as much as you please but lowkey your children go to prison and then they will go to hell by your own logic and cry about them being in jail but in the end because you believe misinformation. It is these people who then sigh and say, "what is wrong with the children today" and overquote MLK and really much known nothing more of civil rights than that.  Think they can control if people like white women or people of color or whatever. Its just frivolous when they have already given up. You hope to change something when you are the tail end of a fucking joke? lol. No, you and your generation already condemned a people to hell in real life refusing to break the chains of abuse. There is no reason any black person should be christian especially in this country. That does not apologize for its abuses. For black people not to recuse theirselves of harmful behavior then fuck; it is just sick and sad. All the time you send in Church literally can be teaching your child a craft, supporting their passion and just helping them in school but no-we got to waste our time on spectacle that is nothing but hollering and a waste of time just so some dude can live in a community house while the people tithe basically go through hell just to stay in a shitty apartment with shitty people and violence and ultimately an environment which makes it easy for their children to go to jail.

I honestly got to say that one has to be profound and deep. We have lost at that MK MZODERN. This level of deepness. There were of course two paths I was considering in fall 2016. Magazines or just continuing and just writing here and here alone. I was going to make the Puma Hightrack; the first song album release and that is basically to say was going to continue my comic making progress that was on pause for a time. Just realize this-a person just expected to come home after school to create what I needed to create but no; you are reminded of that 2002 past and how everything is just meant to fail you. If then its just meant to get women who are lost causes against you for that they are bored and have nothing else to fucking do with their lives; holy shit then that is what it is. I however like in that time in 2002 have found a new identity. A new identity that will never be fooled again. That will make them wish they had behaved into the Abrahamic religions so to speak word for word and virtue for virtue minus the parts you can argue are evil. Clearly no one understands just by existing you are wronged by religion. I will keep that in mind. People can see me and they know right from wrong but do the most evil of evil. You don't even have to be religious to see this. People have no faith in supporting the life and liberty of their fellow citizen still based on race and will come up and be apart of an excuse to do it too. Religion is just still a small part of this equation but what happens to these people is that an entire college experience is now their religion and some one has to be the leader whether willing or unwilling at first. These people act as if I am taboo when I am not. They act as if being a black person not in an engineering program pursuing art is wrong. It is not. These people never consider what they are doing is attempting to take a life.

Truly folks, if I had kicked the bucket that day; there would be no Kyeombi. It would all end there. Nothing I want to do for the world in terms of creativity would happen. Cut short by people who don't give a fuck about life and give every fuck about an abundance of piss and shit to hate a black person. Cannot be convinced otherwise to stop and consider the hopes and dreams of a person. The hopes and dreams that I could be a family with one of them. That if they continue down this path eventually they will commit murder to some people and go to jail and all their college time will be for naught as they will never be hired ever again but languish in prison. These people would not stop. They continued thinking it was alright to assault a person. They continued thinking it was going to be a benefit above the benefits above the shoulders of assumption in this expanded Abrahamic lore that points towards hating the black people instead of being a person who is not racially motivated in hate. They thought they were in the Christian, Muslim and Jewish faith that they were the chosen ones and God had damned me and ordained them in their whole college journey which you can say is very abnormal. They were simply brainwashed to the point of oblivion. You still want to get married to a dude when you had no faith in a dude who never really spoke to you and you never gave much a chance but to launch hate over and over again. Got my suffering as you amass the power to trick the weak willed into submission on a path that does not even benefit them and if not anything mirrors the church tithing situation. They think supporting you will count as a wish to get them anywhere. It does nothing! But get them looking like fools as most of those people will never become a four year college student at all and worse want to be the type that starts from 18 but their time has passed and they spend years toiling for nothing at all.

I got to tell you that dreams ended on that day. Realizing how much hate there still is towards black people; I realize that society is fucked when after all the struggle it takes you as a black person to even get into college to be basically slowly lynched-it can never be forgiven especially when you have black athletes taking the fall for the crazy shit mostly an non black cast of "people" are doing when traveling place to place-people are reminded of one thing and one face. I just in no one way shape or form was just going to end this blog. No, shit is popping off. This is good for business and many efforts. It was such a sacrifice of body, mind and soul. Thinking that God would not allow this to happen to you when you are so close to what? The age where you can have a family and where Kyeombi will take off! Hmm. No nature kicked in and realized that inside me is pure fighter. That retarded women cannot succeed and that Kyeombi will not be culled off by me going away. No, I think a new effort is at hand. Which effort is that J-SHUA. A type of "Jamie" comic and is where I will share in great activity form how you can make your own comic so that there can be as many interpretations of my stories as possible. I have to say that hmm, people don't get off so easily they don't as they wish things to be known. No, you have to understand; I will create a work of fiction to hammer to any audience the devastation of a creatives life being taken away and that will be the first J-SHUA.