be nice

 Be simply amazed, people who you would never think know each other do! People often want to speak about connected universes but the word of the " universe" is abused. Simply and completely abused. World is more accurate. Like how much are you going to be doing? You going to not even make an accurate assessment of your very fucking neighborhood and then want to write a realistic narrative of different worlds which are just banal alien whatevers. The funny thing is that people just choose to ignore the truth. The reality is too much for them. Literally, ya, that is what is what happens. I just don't know these connections. People be showed these things and yet are ignorant and stupid that it cannot be forgiven. With that said you should never leave things up to society. That goes strictly for women that you want to protect. Never should you leave anything to chance. I mean that you should not expect people to respect the women as much as you do or even see them as a people. Hmm, its to be said that maybe their victory is getting me to call them not human but some of these women deserve that title because they made the choices. Ultimately its not my fault they aren't smart enough to protect theirselves from literally groomer and end up so fucked at the end to which they may as well just be dumped on society after some sicko had their fun with them and got all the gratification in the world. Yet in life you can dwell so strictly on people being basically under duress to not realize the different degrees of involvement. Some people can never be redeemed because they have done things that no one can forgive. No one can. I very much will not. Like for a great deal of time a person has been hindered from true full power creativity but you have to realize not everyone has an equal role. Some people are just trapped in with bad people and others are just terrorist 1 and terrorist 2.

I love the great fact of the matter is that ultimately you must come to terms with reality even if the whole world cannot. This is a path of alone ironically in a place that is supposed to be of learning but is just of partying and attempts to say they aren't racist when the football team is essentially their sole and main focus and can only seem to recognize black people only then and there and basically have pampered idiots thinking they matter in anything when all they do is get someone else to do their schoolwork. This serves to reinforce the idea that black people especially black men are bad and that black women can be liberated by marrying someone who is not black. Many times in this twisted place got many moments where people are questioning your black identity. Not only people who aren't black but black people theirselves. People who basically want to appease a white identity and status quo of normality thus hastening hatred upon people who actually like being black and those who are basically drugged by their football dreams and albeit are actually fucking stupid and privileged to see what they contribute to. Nothing at fucking all. This is so people can seemingly have a control of black people anyway and yet any black people who just be as they truly are and not adhering to any forced identity of blackness imposed by these uber riche black people or the football crowd are "loose cannons". So instead my friends of a place of education; you essentially have a place that is solely against you existing. Black people need not have a purpose to just exist. Black people need not have a purpose to serve the greater white society to not be labeled as misfits or loose fucking cannons. But in this place of enlightenment; we are to hate the black people unless they can be of service or contribute to a narrative yes against black people. The thing is every group I hung out with aside from very few had people or members who were antiblack. Just by having a person who was black in the group; you basically had an antiblack person. Other times the existence of "loose cannons" would trigger people like the asian sorority and just this one white RA who did not see me as a threat only because I resembled a child. Sometimes you can escape the sexual hostility that comes from such people just by being and looking like a child in their eyes. The funny thing is that you realize that nicness does not equal respect and everything just falls on its head at that realization. Just finding the place a waste of time; a person just has to leave.

I would clarify that further more that a person never choose people on the basis of race and if I was to pick people on the basis of race; the plenty amount of black individuals would never be accounted for and well-I dunno how you would trust my assessment of the environment if I just avoided black people which I did not. Its just that the idea of " race purity" is nonsense when skin color is just skin color in the realism of the world and humans make that shit up. People are who they are regardless of it and you have to question a person who does not understand these concepts as simple as day and just prefers to use race to control, shame, and abuse people. Like honestly man; who the fuck wants to be around black people who basically drag other black people down. I wonder? People who selfishly contribute to ideas that are harmful to people who share their own race. You think any of the black people aside from those considered "loose cannons" essentially did anything when people were truly being racist? No, they just ignored, did not care and just went about their way. The effort of making friends just because they are one race is stupid when you are just allowing yourself to be entrapped in a groupthink that is disconnected from reality and as a minority that is a privilege you don't fucking have. You don't get to sit around and be stupid and drink tea and crumpits!!!  What shall be learned is that the inability to even see reality only offers one person to become a black lives matter individual who dies a terrible and sudden death. You are just a fool. If I did not say this stuff then I would be a fucking fool. There is no forgiveness by people in this world simply by being black and that school most of all is the most anti black place in the whole fucking region aside from the prisons. 

You like DEI? No Dei? Some student council whatever says something very racist then the president of the school basically says alot of nothing and overtly just supports a bunch of republican efforts like the eagerness to stay away from equitable diverse hirings. Then basically pays favoritism by having this ugly ass statue at a pond which basically seems to a nepotism hiring. Also is the only fucker in the whole region who will literally think  Houston, Texas is the most stereotypical place when its not. No one rides cows or horses to get to work. It just does not work like that. Its a choice to view reality to achieve certain results and that is just to make a workplace and an environment that is hostile to black people. Some people at this school literally will think the most dumbass bullshit ever that is so unrealistic that its laughable. People will rally for Hispanics against black people. People will rally for Asians against black people. Other minorities or whatever they are will do the same. Just to say that they think that black people are the true enemy of society especially in this fucked up place just to distinguish theirselves to win white approval. The funny think is that there are so many types of white people and only one group would actually support such ideas, whilst another would disapprove, another feel sorry for the people, another be disgusted, another who is swampy and hicklike ramble on and on racist and terrible things mocking them and another just would hate them.  I am to say that these people put a fetish on white people that basically has the fewest chance of being received well. Just imagine how much asian hate goes on in America historically and people want to pretend they are well respected with the white people crowd. No, you aren't. In fact people just don't realize that being racist does and will turn off white people who aren't racist. People act as if they know all white people and all what black people are that it is disgusting. Its fucked up. One has to be good and one has to be bad but in reality everything is much more complex and the whole white is good and black is bad is just evil. This is what a president pushes onto a society that is already struggling with race concept and indoctrinating people at a very young age to be their worst. Be you on football team, be you in the sorority and be you in some cozy position nearest said President and followers. Some people ever even especially targeted to become so fucked up.

That is what some girls just are. Fucked up by la presidente and her crew and her connects. Some argue that statue is demonic and I would second that. I would. Just another example of the woman abusing her authority to force ideas onto people and to basically make people uncomfortable as she commonly does through her influence and power as the president. Should I feel sorry for people who do very bad things that if the president was to do them; they would go to jail if anyone knew?  No, I would say " its over-go away now". Some people continue to wish for good things when they have completely burned the bridge.

The lack of boundaries, the lack of common sense, the lack of effort and the lack of any sort of human consideration for another aka empathy is very astounding. I really wish people could have empathy. But they cannot. They can only see things as they see and only get angry at people for doing and being who they are. The funny thing is that not everyone will respond outloud or at all to such a thing. But I will say that some people will take time and let time wear down people. Let the guilt build and when they think they have had enough of hating a person for their skin color try to sweeten the deal but no; you aren't the one. You never spent time with me. You never got to know me. You don't really care and only just want sex. You mess around with things that do not belong to you and try to control reality and the perception it and what people perceive of an individual through your connects. That is just bias. That is just hate. When a person thinks about love; it is not you and when a person thinks about the past-you fucked up. You are an idiot. Realize that. So sure of things you don't know and angry at people they don't match these general stupid ass ideas formed from very racist stereotypes. Hmm, did you seriously think a person was supposed to meet you halfway when all you do is fuck around and think people are to make up for what you cannot do because you make them into an image.  Even all that and this makes it so hard to advocate for you. Somehow want to like a person but endear in these racist idealisms.

I am not done but literally. Be simply amazed. The audacity. Got a person near a stroke, sweating it out for  nearly a fucking decade and then basically compounding all fears into one fucking thing and beating the living shit out of them. True to me, avoiding the truth until it is all but too late to navigate in any form or fashion without having to defend thineself. I got to say that when people all up in your space and your sacred ideas are not even safe; then fuck-everything is free for all. Everything. Your life is not your own especially when you basically allow yourself to be basically prostituted and then become so destitute in morals you yearn for the past just to make the same mistakes that wound you up here. Trying to ask me to help you when you fucked up. When you came with everything you had at a person who is not apart of this groupthink gone out of control just to prove you weren't with the black. Some people be caught up in a moment of great rage and fear and espouse nonsensical futures that are just made in spite, idiocy and a lack of real world knowledge. So foolish it is to want a man.

So foolish it is to want a man just for him to be a play thing. Honey, honey, you got me started. These people put everything they had to spiting me and will say that is good. Tell me how you really feel when a person ultimately was just giving into the truth. There was no way to continue. There was no way anyone would be together I realized. Its almost stupidity to hold onto to people who have done nothing for you. Nothing for you when you have needs. Human needs and are treated as not a human. I surely wished it would be a story where you received support from doing this and that comic but truly I did not. Small words of affirmation really don't fucking count for anything especially when you do nothing; avoid a person for years or rather hit them like fucking Jungle warfare. For all this nonsense of "he's not white" bullshit-people could have been so supportive. They could have just really kept a person company. Be a friend, be something more but no-we got to just party all the fucking time and be idiots who believe in a very privilege and fringe naive culture that is just an excuse for racism that is often like jungle warfare. What is here today is gone tomorrow.

The futures that could have been here today but gone tomorrow. The women who were saved from being apart of the snatch of corruption just because I opted to not recognize them. The cycle repeating itself over and over again because of the overlooming question a person dares to ask not because they are a genius, or a normal person but because they recognize the environment and that people being too overtly eager to be a relationship and be friendly must have some darkside when that is not how it is outside a school. Fuck it all man if a person dare test the faith. If a person tests you for it to be too good to be truth and the funny thing at Calamatia or what I call Calamatia is that suddenly pondering upon these ideals in some art class; I realize sitting across from me the same situation seemingly repeating. The nice girl and the overtly already inside the trick of jungle warfare set of women nearest them to convince them of their truths which are just racist ideals. I got to tell you a person realizes a pattern and just thinks, " its not real". None of those people actually care about me. You would not leave money on the table but you treat a dude as chump change. Unworthy of time, unworthy of respect and mostly unworthy of being loved but just a false, " I want to experiment with black people" type of thing that is disgusting. Leaving a person starving for years as they try to answer this question ( actually 3 years by fall 2016 when Calamatia happened) if you care or you don't. The spell just breaks when reality just pours in. All these people were just having fun and some having too much fun extracting pain upon me. The worst of the worst was always hovering there whilst there be some people who don't show up unless clearly coerced, forced or just called. Why is that?  These people are just the fun to include to sickos who get off on pain as if taught by a certain president these ideas are okay. They are so much not okay. Let me tell you that. It shows no respect for women by women. It shows that ultimately my feelings are a toy and everything is just a game. As if someone could register the moment I flipped my stance; they all came pouring in-the very begrudgingly coerced at the very last. Some people never even showed which shows they were never apart of the groupthink at all and never will be.

Then having so much context lacking of the true danger; challenge these women who have done too much to even be regarded as the people who are people. They come from out of an experience feeling delight. They come out of an experience feeling wet in their underpants. They come out of an experience feeling invincible. They keep on going thinking their ideas are good and that they will never be stopped. Basically screwing up my plans for years. If things never feel right, you have to realize a person had to wait to make any great calls of judgment. Cannot simply act without evidence but these women did too much to warrant me not caring anymore when I reasoned and deluded and realized reality. There was no way these people were going to do anything. No one to come and save you. No one to come and support you. Just cowards and imbeciles embracing a feminist mindset that is indeed just so that can be all about theirselves and their great "genius" but no they have no feminist anything nor genius. I think people don't truly understand feminist anything as how they treat women is worse than anything the worst man would. Simply view women and the addition of different women as a means to spice up what must be a game only abusers can enjoy. Every lost dating partner was just not even a person ironically but a means of getting pleasure from causing me pain. These people want to be subtle about it and many times like worms. If genders were truly changed; this level of social violence would never be tolerated. Women often don't respect the benefit of men valuing them as princesses or romantically so that when bad men are; some men will act to protect them. However there are no women like that! You get to a point where women are dogs to the concept of having no power. No power to make any real change and maybe that change can start by how you dare treat dudes whom you like. Maybe instead of expecting people to do all the work for you and get angry when they don't; you either just go up to communicate your feelings or you don't and don't ever embarrass yourself by contributing to such a disgrace which only drags women down. Like imagine if I was someone else. That you have fucked around with the wrong dude. I don't even know how to tell people that everyone will not just take things sitting down.

Imagine a person wanting to be an individual but just there is no right time to give respect or dignity to what actually needs to be done. The individual is never alone and very much its hard to ask them to be with them when everyone is always around and really much it would just be bad if they did know you had interest in them. Imagine trying to actually find the space and time when alone to even speak about anything before someone else appears or something you have to do comes up. This person however seems to understand nothing of reality and places all these things on you when if you actually asked them out in front of everyone it risks you getting in arguments or beaten up to just openly contribute to these issues and then wants to give a fuck about you in the end? No, it only gets worse. Realizing that you are " wasting their time" get angry and basically go on a hidden tirade against you instead of even communicating to you.  The level of pettiness in this is literally to try to dismantle a parade float a person has made in an effort to be with the girl only to be betrayed. This betrayal is never apparent to the dude and just continues trying to find the time to communicate their feelings but to no success. The woman is already beyond reasoning and goes to the level of basically jumping the gun and showing how insane they are by wanting the dude to pay for "embarrassing" them. Because their social society credit has been defiled especially in this wanton place that hates black people because a person must be a loose cannon for not just be how they envision them and basically doing all the social work. Fuck that  but it gets even worse. The neuroticism of a woman goes so far that they consider killing the person they formerly liked and to be said that once you get to that point; who would ever want to lay in a bed with that. If anyone can be warped or groomed to wanting to kill someone who they liked; oh fuck you then-its not my destiny to be dealing with crazy. Giving in my thoughts that so many of these women were not the coerced kind but the terroristic ones forcing everyone to be of this vindictive air is what truly made me realize how much a lie everything now was or rather from the start it was doomed to fail because they could not truly be humane, patient or even well meaning but malicious and fucked up in intentions and maybe presidente just gives them means to be their very worst instead of helping them to be better.

So do you truly think a girl is just going to learn to not be racist through sensitivity training especially when an environment that gives the training is stepped in racism so much that it cannot be the authority of "not-racism" when everything is racism. In fact this lowball effort at discipline is just a means to keep a public face as some bitch can just continue to expose racial hatred no doubt is apart of the greater plot.

Yet how can you wake up and live with yourself. Realizing a person was into you but you turned everything about you and being anti black so really you fucked everything up to an embarrassing level. That now a person will never be with you and ultimately instead have made yourself an enemy. A person who may now get you in trouble so that it never matter that you got any form of higher education. Hmm... that would be good for you.