The incident.

How greatly I was cheated of peace just because  a great number of idiot women from a college have no uber philosophy but doubt, panic, get angry and do a terror act.  How dare people have such a lack of self respect foremost to listen to lies. Thinking that people always have to comfort them as what they are doing is so hard or is even mandatory. These people act as if there is a need to like me as if they will get the chopping block if they don't but this is only because they see a future and want to still be apart of what is hate. It makes no sense. Do you think anyone wants such a weak will idiot? Do you think any man wants a woman who at the slightest turn of hardship loses their fucking mind! And wants to have feelings but realizes because they apart of the hate cannot admit them but forever hold a grudge that is not a grudge but just hate. Creating panic, rumors and a toxic environment, yea-certainly lets feel so good about that. Whilst a person is basically working their behind off and doing what is unnecessary for people who want an idea of a person then or never. Then get down the road of no return because they do not believe in doing the right thing. They are idiots. They have nothing to give and whoever is stupid enough to even marry them is a dumb fuck. I need you people to realize they cannot be redeemed. They took my gracious care for them and turned it into something evil and then tried to take my life from me. Foremost encroaching on my space and asking of sexual favors when such a thing was only ever spoken of to a gf at the time and when it was refused got angry and attacked me. Arching for the favor it would seem of the person who create the racist system idea at the certain place of their business.

 It ironic they want to be apart of someone's story but let me tell; they have no business. No woman is going to tell me how to run my stuff and what I should or should not be doing. That is what happens when you don't respect people as a man and just think whatever will fly because you got this special permission to misbehave from someone who really has no power over anything. And if she directs you to attack a person that just makes you her personal soldiers. And if she gets you to go so far from a campus to other places then that is just trafficking. For all your escapism of being a woman who is dependent on a man or in many of their minds, women married to a black man-its good for them because now that woman owns them. She owns them. She controls what they think. What they do with their bodies and ultimately who they can become and what they can do. A nobody to me.

Have this special connection but you do nothing with it. Instead of trying to actually realize an idea that you have and that I very aware that you have; you do nothing but throw it all the way in the trash. Then wonder why no one likes you after you basically write them off, hang with other people, make other obligations, just lose your mind, any sense of empathy and that maybe perhaps people don't want to live like you. With those rude haunty, " I am better than everyone else" because I get As and apart of a special high society club. Hmm, Special High Society Club indeed it shall be what I call these women. 

These women disgust me because ironically running away from that good olde traditional whatever for their faulty brand of feminism basically exude stereotypes about women that are harmful and especially deadly for many women with the rumors and ideals they spread. Like the whole idea that black men are basically the worst people and white men are saints. Bullshit, racist fucking bullshit and to add even more depth want to say that its best for every woman to date a white man and have a half white child to basically "purify" society. But no, that is fucking stupid for many reasons other than just being racist. It takes away the ability for people to not be in other people's business with these ideas that progress for women is this! It adds an authoritarian power structure over people's private business. It makes it far game to assume that women are just property to be converted for a "cause" without considering free will, people's actual wants and needs and ultimately assumes the idea is correct when its wrong.

I am just going to lay people out in this one. These women assume that they are the best of the best when they aren't. They are just lucky they even finished school at all and that they left highschool with such prospects. Many people suffer from white privilege syndrome even if not white aka literally come from these wealthy white places where minorities are few and literally the politics of their parents are troublesome in actuality. Why oh, why should black people even have to go to the army to even be good members of society? Its just a racist idea and ultimately hmm, this idea has to be taught by someone right?! These women simply are so closed minded and think that just because they go to school as women means that they aren't the exception. So many women wish to go to college still despite women going to college more than men. The disparity of women being in education still is there and they act as if women don't have educational problems globally nor world wide. They promote a lie based on false security. Many women get pregnant early in life I am going to say and literally its something that detracts from gaining a college education. It ends the whole ability for people to even be privileged like them and these idiots basically support ideas that make women and their relationships nothing more than to bring in an end to people of color.  It makes them nothing more than property for white men because people really have such hatred for black people they assume they are violent across all the races but even with the exclusion of black men-the idea itself is disgusting. You cannot force women to be with people just because of their race and destroy what is natural. These people want to have these connections but destroy what comes naturally. This is all they can do and become. What is it saying about these women when they basically are more sexist and racist than any other and their small grasp at power only makes life harder for other women. Girl power my ass; these people don't even know what the fuck they are doing but just love being stupid. Its also painting a narrative that when women are given power that all they can do is abuse it.  Have such a closemind that they don't know their ideas only help bigots and sexists and do nothing for them. You were better off just not trying to improve anything and just conform to the reality of whatever the fuck you saw because you really lost everything. There is no future for any of them with me.

They threw it away actually the summer of 2014 if you would think of that. These people move on and oh well-again you never want to wife these people. They got angry that nothing happened because basically they did not do anything. If so interested and that was your point of radicalization; me-then really its only you who did wrong. Listening to bullshit instead of doing what was necessary. But instead want to attack a person two years later ( basically at the end of summer of 2016) who honestly is trying to put the whole thing to rest-it shows that you are crazy and from the start to finish never the won. You already lost before you began. The problem was the ego going out of control. The knowledge of what could be that you refused to act on. Using the mutual interest for your own advantage to get in with a crazy racist and their crazy racist organization that defaces the purpose of an university with them only teaching you all to let you ego go wild and unchecked and that you know everything and that you are invincible. You aren't.

The most funny thing of this whole advent is how none of these women realize how many of them are just vying for one dude. I wonder why? Maybe a person is not actually liked as you would think or tell yourself but madam prostitute master is telling you who to like so she can manipulate you to stop them from doing something that is none of her business but has let ego of a position, space and authority in a school go to her head. Basically, maybe you are just all fools because this is not the way you go about doing anything. You may think whatever you are doing is good and that no one is harmed but no; all this shit has harmed me. It has harmed me. I took a time to try to unbrainwash people from doing something that they would come to regret. Never let me get even the words out; that if you ever continue your behavior its over.  So trapped in the ego. So trapped in nonsensical words and pleasuring thineself to future could be things and people from a dude that you could not even wake up to reality.

For many of these people; their summer was enjoyable and they ate with their sorority sisters and had fun with their romantic gfs and bfs. I mean some of these women gay. Nothing wrong with that but damn, realize that a dude is not for a person who has obviously chosen to be with a woman being gay. Bisexual is another thing but I am not a woman and so does it makes sense to have romantic grudges on a person who is not a woman!  But no, insist! That you are straight when you aren't. I dunno even know how to respond to that. The message of that woman is so good when you are gay to attack a dude just minding their own fucking business. These people never understood what I was going through and ultimately it was not going well. You find that comics is like a corrupt industry and then that graphic design is a corrupt industry to which only nepotism and not any college degree or real skill gets you anywhere and that self enterprise is the only way to go especially when people are against your methods and ultimately are stupid as fuck. That to even be successful at creating a business everything must be from the ground up and your methods are not complete and need more practice behind them and that you need to take a rest from basically working so hard in the summer that you barely even slept for to three months trying many ways to make the comic dream true which no one cared about where you lived or even appreciated but treated so bad for this dumbfuck idealism you dropped out of college but did not ever at all. You people just adding onto this shit and you think anyone wants that. No, one does and ultimately if a people's folks knew about the conditions of the college; you would never have been sent.

A person arched for a peace of mind after such a harrowing turn of disappointments. Realizing that no matter how many competitions you enter comics are not even really an industry of fair opportunities! That you wasted your time on works for competitions instead of studying your method to the extent you could have and the one method that later on would have worked. If only I had support then but what good is that connection? Oh, just a means to attack a person. Trying to force people into a compromising position when they are literally trying to take it easy then trying to take away free will, their mind, sexually assault them, physically assault them and just think that a person is going to survive all that at once and not have a stroke and seizure or realize that everything they have fought for is a live. You would never be any good person. God forbid anyone marries you. Have no empathy to people and their struggles and just think its all about you and bullshit some woman thinks you can literally succeed doing to young women basically having them look insane and basically to kill someone they like but really have been so groomed against it; its just bad for an old woman to be supporting this and even worse for them as women to go along with it all. I felt embarrassment realizing they were crazy. Everything made fun of and nothing valued at all just so people can be in their ego and say that I passed on a good life because "white people are so much better" and " the only choice for a feminist to make to improve women's lives is to date white". Such stupidity. I worried too much for nothing but then I realized with a freedom from these people first I must survive the incident.